Curious

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Elizabeth looks over at me with teary eyes. "A-Anna, what the fuck." she says shakily. She sets down the test and hugs me. My arms hang at either side or me, tears form in my eyes. "Are you okay?" she sniffles as she pulls away from me.

"Fuck." I exhale, walking out of her room. "I can't be pregnant Elizabeth. I just signed with Victoria Secret." my voice breaks at the end of that sentence.

She nods once she's sitting next to me on her couch. "Yeah, I know. But there's nothing we can do about it now." she looks at me nervously. "When are you telling Juan?"

I sigh. "Can you take me home?" I don't know how Juan is going to react honestly. I mean, sure we've talked about for sure wanting kids one day. But now? We've never talked about having kids now. It's always been a conversation about the future.

"Yeah." she walks into her room and a few seconds later reappears with the test in her hands. "You should have this with you." she says, sliding it into my purse.

I shake my head. "I can't believe this is happening to me." I walk out of the apartment and all the way down to Elizabeth's car.

A minute later she walks out, unlocking the car. "You being pregnant isn't the worst thing in the world." she sighs.

"Say that louder, I don't think the guy on the 6th floor heard you." I roll my eyes, opening the door and going into the passengers seat.

"I get that this was a big surprise and all, but seriously, how do you feel?" she asks once she's gotten into the car.

"Scared." I say pathetically. Tears from in my eyes again. I cover my face with my hands and sink into the seat. We sit in silence for at least a solid minute while I try to keep my composure. I sniffle, wiping the corners of my eyes before looking over at her. "I'm fucking scared. Can we go?"

She nods quickly, buckling up and starting up the car. "Yeah. Yeah, let's go."

I don't say anything for the rest of the car ride. My head is spiraling. I haven't talked to Juan all day but I'm assuming he's home since it's already 4:30 and all of his meetings were early in the morning. "Thanks, Liz. I'll call you tomorrow. We can go out for lunch or something, sort everything out." I give her a quick hug before getting out of the car and making my way up to my apartment.

I take one last deep breath before unlocking the door and walking in. I walk in slowly to see if there are any signs of Juan being home. Nope. I think the coast is clear. I throw myself on my couch and shut my eyes.

"Hey, bonita."

I jump, turning my head around to look at him. "Fuck! You scared me, Juan." my eyes then dart down to look at the fact that he only has a towel wrapped around his waist. "I thought you weren't home."

He chuckles. "Yeah, I got home a while ago, I just got out of the shower."

I nod, feeling my heart race beginning to quicken. "Hey, Juan, can we talk?" I squeeze my eyes shut as I try not to just full on break down crying. "It's about something serious."

"Yeah, sure. Just let me go change. I'll be right back." he turns and heads upstairs.

I feel sick again. I feel hot, I'm a sweaty mess. What if Juan reacts badly? No, he wouldn't. Would he? I have so many thoughts racing through my head that I don't even realize when Juan sits down next to me. "What's up?" he asks, crisscrossing his legs and turning to face me.

I look over at him and smile. "How was your day?" stalling this terrifying talk isn't the best idea, but it's what I'm going with.

"It was..." he sighs. "stressful."

"Why?"

He shakes his head, caressing my cheek. "Just work stuff, nothing I feel like talking about right now." he kisses my lips gently. "What about your day?"

I let out a shaky breath. "That's kinda what I wanted to talk to you about." I look down at my lap nervously.

"Yeah, wh—" suddenly, his phone goes off from upstairs. "I'll be right back."

I squeeze my eyes shut as he begins to walk away. If I let him take that call right now, I know I won't have the courage to tell him anytime soon. "Juan I'm pregnant." I say quietly but I know he hears me when he comes to a halt at the first step of the staircase.

He turns around slowly. "What?"

Tears fill my eyes as I nod. "Yeah."

He quickly comes over and sits next to me again. "Are you serious?" he asks, his expression in shock.

I nod. "I felt sick during my shoot this morning, I threw up. And then I realized my period is late." I stand up, walking over to my bag where Elizabeth had put my test. I take it out, and walk back over to Juan. "Elizabeth took me back to her place and made me take this." I throw it next to him, waiting for him to pick it up, to see those two bold lines.

I'm standing, my arms hugging my body as I try to keep the tears in. He's looking down at the test with shaky hands. He looks up at me, also with tears in his eyes and before I even have time to process it, he's wrapping his strong arms around me. I melt into his arms, wrapping them around his neck. The hot tears just stream down now my cheeks now. "Juan, I don't want this." I admit quietly.

His body tenses up and he slowly let's go, looking down at me with a frown. "What do you mean, bonita?" he takes my hand and leads us back to the couch.

I sniffle, looking down at his hand in mine. "I don't want this." I repeat, looking up to see the confusion in his face. "I just signed with Victoria Secret, Juan. That's always been my dream. If I'm pregnant, it jeopardizes everything that has to do with my career."

He nods slowly, clearly trying to understand where I'm coming from. "I get that Adrianna, but you aren't looking at this the right way." He squeezes my hands tightly. "We're gonna have a baby. This is a blessing from God, bonita. It's all gonna work itself out." he kisses me gently.

I nod, wiping away a stray tear. "You do realize that its so much easier for you to say that then it is for me, right Juan?" I let out a sigh. "You aren't the one who's career is going to be totally postponed because of this."

"I know, I'm sorry." he shrugs. "You don't even feel the tiniest bit of joy?" he frowns.

I shrug. "I mean, kinda." I smile sadly, looking up at him and sniffling. "Knowing that it's with you makes everything a whole lot better though."

His frown turns into a full blown smile. His perfect teeth are all showing, his eyes lit up and happy, his cheeks uplifted. "I love you so much." He grabs me, bringing me up to his lap so that I'm straddling him. He then wraps his arms around my waist, pulling me in for a hug. "Ay, bonita. Don't worry, everything is going to work out." he lets out a long sigh, as he rests his chin on my shoulder.

I nod, letting out a genuine sigh of relief. I knew he would make me feel better about everything. "Yeah, I know." I wrap my arms around his neck and begin to cry, again. Only this time they're happy tears, maybe this won't be so bad after all.

A/n
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