Curious

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I spend the night in the guest bedroom while Juan spends the night in his room. It feels wrong. I miss smelling him beside me, cuddling up against him when I get cold in the middle of the night. I spend pretty much the whole night tossing and turning.

I wake up to the smell of bacon and what I think is eggs. After I brush my teeth and fix my hair I go downstairs.

I find Juan sitting at the table, phone in hand fork in the other. I'm guessing he can feel my presence because he looks up, "Oh. Hey..." he says awkwardly. He looks back at his phone as he continues to scroll, "I made breakfast. Feel free to grab some." his eyes never leave the screen.

So he's definitely still angry. I wasn't angry at him anymore. I got to thinking last night and I came to the conclusion that I should fully trust in Juan and what he told me. I was just pushing his buttons. Why? I'm not sure. But all I know is that I seriously want to stop talking about that stupid kiss. I was going to apologize this morning but after seeing his hostile attitude towards me, I think I want him to apologize now. I simply worded something incorrectly and there he went blowing it out of fucking proportion!

After quickly grabbing a plate and serving myself I take a seat in front of him and begin eating. The silence could not have been more awkward. Usually on a day like today when he would wake up first and I would come down he would immediately drop the phone to start some type conversation. Not today I guess.

After about twenty minutes he drops the phone, "So, this party. Is it still on or not?" he asks in a monotone voice.

I shrug, moving the food that's on my plate around with a fork, "Up to you." I pick up a cut piece of pancake and put it into my mouth before chewing slowly.

"Yeah, let's do it. It'll help me get some things off of my mind." he nods.

"Call all of the people you want to invite then." I know I had offered to call everybody for him but he just ruined my whole mood. He can call them himself. "I'm taking a shower." I stand up and drop my plate into the sink, "We can go for decorations later."

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The day consists of minimal talking except for when it comes to deciding on which decorations to buy. We sleep in the same bed but I sleep dangerously close to the right side and he also sleeps dangerously close to the left side. It sucks. But i'm not saying sorry for something that doesn't even make sense to me. If he took it the wrong way, I don't get how it's my fault. And his attitude hasn't gone away at all.

When I wake up I find Juan's side of the bed is empty. I walk into the bathroom and quickly brush my teeth before going downstairs. I see him leaning on the counter looking down at his phone with furrowed brows.

When I get closer he looks up. The smallest grin creeps up onto his lips, "Happy Birthday." I say taking him into a hug.

He pulls me into a quick kiss after we part from our hug, "Thank you." he smiles down at me, still cupping my cheek.

I know it's only been a day of us not being ourselves around each other but it honestly feels like forever. I fight the urge to bring him in for another kiss. "My brothers should be arriving here like in an hour." I say stepping back from his hold so that I can see the clock that's hung the wall behind him.

"That's good. I haven't seen them in forever. Im surprised they were able to make it." he nods. In one of our brief conversations yesterday Juan still insisted on me inviting my brothers. I hesitated on inviting them but eventually did because I thought they would decline the offer since it was such short notice. I was wrong. All three of them would be arriving in less then an hour. I just had to pray for the best.