love on the brain

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Emily's POV

I paced back and forth near the front door waiting for Alison. It's been 4 hours. 4 hours.

4 hours since Talia tried to rape me. 4 hours since Alison showed up. 4 hours since I left. 4 hours since I got here.

It may not have been long, but it felt long.
I was nervous. I wanted to know what was taking so long.

"Can you stop doing that. You're making me dizzy", Tyler speaks standing by the door.

I stop moving and for a second the room began to spin. "Sorry. It's just— it's been 4 hours. What is taking her so long?", I asked him.

"I'm sure Miss Dilaurentis has a good reason for her absence. Worry you not, you need to go and get some rest. You've had a eventful day today", he tells me.

Eventful? That's one fucking way to put.
I mean let's just jot it down real quick.

• went back to the city to pack my things ✔
• got into a argue with my now ex-fiancé ✔
• was almost raped by my now ex-fiancé ✔
• alison saved me from my now ex-fiancé and now is probably still over there doing whatever she's gone at like her body guard told me. ✔
• sitting at Alison's house waiting for her to come back. It's been 4 hours, reaching 5 What was taking so long ✔

Okay that are you up to date are just as confused as me. I would hope so.

"I'm not going anywhere until Alison gets here", I tell him seriously.

Thoughts ran my mind. What Alison was doing? Maybe she was talking to her. Okay be realistic, knowing Alison talking is the last thing she would be doing.

What if she's beating the shit out of Talia right now. Not that she doesn't deserve it but I mean I don't want Talia to get hurt.

Not by Alison's doing.
Who knew what Alison was really capable of.

"I can assure Miss Dilaurentis is fine"

I wasn't worried about her. I wasn't worried about what she was doing.

Tyler tries to calm me down as he noticed I was getting myself worked up.

I needed to breathe.
I sat in the couch, inhaling and exhaling, rubbing my sweaty palms against my jeans.

I bit my lip nervously.
"Please Miss Fields go upstairs and get some rest", Tyler is practically begging me.

I sigh nodding, giving in.
Hopefully when I wake up Alison will be back.

I stood up from the couch making my way towards the stairs when I heard the door open. My heart froze, I stopped in my footsteps, turning around quickly.

Tears formed in my eyes almost immediately.
What happened?
Was she okay?
Am I okay?

I watched as Alison walked inside the house following behind one of her guards.

I breathed heavily as she was greeted by Tyler as he shut the door
"Good Evening, Miss Dilaurentis"

"Tyler call Sophie and tell her to cancel all of my meetings from today, to tomorrow"

"Yes, Ma'am"

Alison eyes wandered her house before landing on me. She stood there looking at me, as I looked back at her.

I inhaled and exhaled deeply trying to control my emotions.

I noticed Alison was about to walk towards me but before she could move I took off running towards her.

In that moment for some reason I needed to feel her around me. Holding me. Protecting me.

I crash into her, wrapping my arms around her neck causing her to stumble back but she quickly catches her balance and hugs me back.

I began to cry in her arms.
"It's okay. I got you", she whispers holding me, as I feel her place her hand on my head.

"I got you", she tells me.
I wanted this moment to last forever. Because Alison wasn't Alison Dilaurentis who is a intimidating, serious, bossy, top notch business woman. She is Alison Dilaurentis who has a heart, and actually can love.

"You're gonna be okay.", she reassure me.

I don't think anyone has ever seen this seen of Alison. She was sweet and kind. She wasn't scary or bossy. She was just everything I needed her to me right now.

I wasn't sure how to feel. Everything was literally happening so fast, so fast I couldn't process it all at the same time.

"Come. Let's get some rest"

She tells me, breaking the hug and intertwining her fingers with mine, leading me upstairs to her bedroom.

I follow her entering the room as she shuts the door. I watch as she begins to remove her jacket, and shoes.

I stood there unsure what to do or what to ask the question that wander my mind ever since she stepped foot into the house.

"Alis— before I could finish to say her name she cuts me off, "I know you have questions and I plan on answering them, just not right now", she says walking towards me.

"When?"

"Tomorrow. Until then just get in bed with me so I can hold you"

Hold me?
Was this a dream or something?

Without saying a word I walked towards to the other side of the bed, taking off my jeans. I always slept with my pants off which is more comfortable then sleeping with them on.

I climb onto the bed to find Alison waiting for me, I pull the covers under my body, as I laid next to her.

I looked at her as she reaches her hand and caresses my cheek slowly, looking into my eyes.

Searching them.
"I was so worried about you today", she confesses after sighing softly.

How was I supposed to respond to that. Tell her that I was okay? That everything was going to be okay.

Truth was I didn't know if I was okay or not and for some reason I knew everything wasn't going to be okay. That things will get worse. Worse than this. Worse for me.

Before I could respond her lips are pressed against mine softly. Seconds later we part as she pushes my hair out of my face, and pushes it behind my ear.

"Turn around"

"What?", I asked confused.

She rolls her eyes, "why must you question everything I say, just do it"

I sigh, slowly turning around to other side, I'm guessing she didn't want me facing her. I mean why else would you tell someone to turn around if you didn't want to see them.

My heart melts as I feel her arm wrap around my stomach pulling me back into her. She didn't want me to turn around so she couldn't see me. She wanted me to turn around so she could hold me.

I slightly smile before closing my eyes, and falling into wrapped in Alison's arm.

I have to say it's the best sleep I've gotten in days, she holding me. Making sure I was safe made me weak.

Earlier today Talia asked me if I loved her.
Loved Alison.

I don't know if loving Alison is even an option, being the person she is, and how she handles things. Alison isn't capable of love.

But that doesn't mean I don't have feeling towards her.

I wish I could stop myself but I could already feel myself falling for her.

Which isn't good.
Not for her. For me. Or anyone.