love on the brain

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I woke up with my head literally pounding, I slowly opened my eyes to realize I was just where I didn't want to be.

Right back in Alison's very comfortable bed.
God.

I sat up slowly looking to see her leaning against the door frame just looking at me.

Once her eyes met mine I quickly looked away, embarrassment fell on my face.

I remember exactly everything that happened yesterday. Everything I wish I didn't. From what happened in the Red Room to how drunk I got afterwards.

Look how I let Alison influence me.

She enters the room slowly holding a glass of water.

"H-how are you feeling?", she asked at a distance. I'm sure she knew how I felt, and knew exactly why I drank myself to death yesterday.

I sat silently refusing to answer her question. I just looked at her, unsure what she would ask next.

"For the headache", she says approaching the nightstand and placing down two pills and the glass of water.

I look at her.
She looks at me.

It was awkward.

"I-I'm sorry. About yesterday. I was angry, and I shouldn't have did that to you. That room is meant for both pleasure and pain, love and lust but I just caused you pain and for that I'm truly sorry", she says.

The look in her eye I could tell she was hurt. Because not only did she hurt me, the way I was acting, how I am treating her right now as if she was some type of monster... she didn't like it.

I nod understanding.

"I have to go to work today. Whenever your ready to talk about yesterday or anything, I'm— just call me, okay?", she asked.

I nod watching as she turned around walking towards the door. Before she could exit, I finally spoke up and stopped her.

"I would like to go home today"

The words escape from my mouth without me processing what I just said. But it was something true.

I wasn't sure if I even wanted whatever Alison and I were.

She turned around. I could tell by her face expression she wasn't happy with my choice of words. I made it sound like I was running away from her.

And I sort of was.

"Ju-just for today. Please".
She sighs, nodding.

I had so much to think about. Talia. My life. What's gonna happen afterwards.

There was so much I needed to do and not enough time.

"I'll have Sean accompany you", she responds low. I turn around not facing Alison, I laid back down.

I felt her presence still there. I could tell she was there, just watching me. I didn't mind it but it felt as if she wanted to say something but couldn't exactly get it out. Moments after I then hear her depart from the room.

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The limo came to a stop, I turned looking out my window to see my apartment complex. The same apartment I used to love coming home to after a long day of work.

Seconds later the door opened, I was help out my Sean who held my hand. I turned looking to the black SUV behind us, Alison had a few of her guards also accompany me today.

I nod thanking Sean as he let go of my hand, I pulled down my dress, as the guards got out from the SUV behind me.

Two stood behind me and one in the front. Alison was taking this protection thing to seriously, the only reason I wanted to home today was to just get away from all that contract shit.