love on the brain

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"I want an answer"

She pauses before making herself comfortable in her chair.

"A clear, straight, direct, yes or no answer. But knowing you...you probably won't give it to me" she finishes causing me to roll my eyes.

"You make it seem like it's easy, Alison. There's a lot to think about okay"

She stands up from her chair probably frustrated with my response and the eye rolling.

"Like what, emily? It isn't like I'm asking you to marry me"

"But yet you are asking me to be with you. Despite knowing how are you... knowing that any minute you will realize I'm.... this isn't what you want" I tell her anger displayed all in my voice.

Why couldn't she understand my feelings about this? Moreover, why couldn't I understand hers.

"Is that what you are worried about, emily? I already told you— I cut her off, "I know but still".

"Now you're just being ridiculous" she complains.

"Am I? Am I really? Am I not allowed to feel this way?" I asked her, I wasn't wrong.

She sighs placing her hands on her hips before looking directly at me.

"This back and forth, pull and tug game you're playing has to stop, emily. I want an answer, I deserve one... it's driving me insane"

Understandable.

"Tomorrow" I pause.

Am I sure I could answer her tomorrow?

She scoffs at my response before breaking eye contact with me. "Tomorrow Emily, I want my answer" she tells me.

"Tomorrow you will get it"

I watch as she exhales before making her way to the door causing me to stand up.

"Where are you going?" I ask hoping she wasn't mad at me or anything. She faces me, jaw clinching meaning she was pissed and most likely she was trying to hold back her anger.

"I have some work to finish back at the office so I won't be home tonight. Meaning I won't be in contact either because I'll be busy so if you need anything tell Tyler" she tells me.

You could literally hear the anger in her voice. If I would've told her yes right now I promised she wouldn't have to go to her office.

Probably just an excuse to get away from me and calm herself down. I don't blame her either for being mad at me, I'm mad at myself I can't even give her a straight answer but I want her to fuck me? God, I need help.

"ok"

Was the only thing I said before watching her walk out of the room.

What in the world was wrong with me? All I needed to do was give her an answer, and I couldn't even do that?

Why?
I know because I'm stubborn and a little bitch. I mean she literally told me she was willing to give up everything for me and I couldn't even give her an answer.