Why Gen Z Kids will fix the world- or at least help people know why it's broken

Its a game

It's a game

Should've stayed a game to me

I knew it was a game to you

It should've been a game for me

And I told myself

It meant nothing to you

But deep inside I knew

It was everything to me

It's a game really

A game where I'm the only one playing.

Don't be weird about it- I wouldn't remember either.

Maybe you're reading this, Maybe you think this is about you. Well truth be told it's about a lot of people about a lot of different things- You just brought me down to earth again.

Kinda made me realize I shouldn't be here

I should be DEAD by now actually. Should've died several times over in my life.

Now that my life is going smoothly I live In constant fear.

I'm scared of being happy and relaxed

Why?

Because every time I am something horrid happens and god I don't want it to be you

If I distance myself from you

It's for your protection.

I'm poison. Everyone who gets close to me dies, or worse.

Isn't that quote great? Fans may say I took it from the show and plastered it down but that's how it works for me.

I should still be suffering

I should be dead

I should be in hell by now

And other people took MY FALL.

They saw me falling and leapt for it and now I'm sitting in their ashes. Knee deep in guilt.

I don't speak much about my life. My twin sister knows next to nothing about how I grew up. I'd like to keep it that way.

It's part of the game

And we started a new game

To me? That's the endgame.

That's it. If I lose this game and I already know I'm going to- Hell I actually have no idea.

Nothing overly dramatic yet.

Odds were and are against me

I shouldn't have even been allowed to play this game.

Wouldn't have ever gotten the chance had other people not tried to save me, sticking their neck out instead of shoving mine back in.

This chapters a duel chapter. That's what ADD does. Makes you go off track a lot.

Whatever. I'm probably faking all my mental illnesses anyways. Given I've never had them "Diagnosed."

Tbh I may not publish this chapter and I may randomly delete it if I do so if you are reading this

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry okay.

I'm sorry. But hell, I don't know what for. For trying maybe.

Goodbye-