Why Gen Z Kids will fix the world- or at least help people know why it's broken

"Just Work Harder" (RANT)

Rant

Fucking

Alert

(And a lot of grammatical and punctuation errors due to the fact I'm typing fast and angry on a cellphone)

Do you know what I'm not okay with? Sacrificing mental health and energy to do school work to be told I'm not putting in enough effort.

If anything I'm putting in a shitton MORE effort because my energy levels are already at an all time low (scientifically proven) due to Depression and anxiety. My insomnia and not sleeping because I can't Probably doesn't help any.

My mental health is fucking trash okay. Me PUTTING ASIDE ANY AND ALL OPTIONS AND HELP AND METHODS TO GET BETTER SO I CAN GO TO A PLACE FOR EIGHT HOURS A DAY FIVE DAYS OUT OF MY SEVEN DAY WEEK THAT HAPPENS TO INCREASE ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION BY A SHITTON TO GO DO A MATH PROBLEM I WILL LITERALLY NEVER USE IN MY LIFE IS NOT OKAY.

ITS JUST NOT.IM PICKING MYSELF UP EVERY DAY FIGHTING MY MENTAL DISORDERS TO GO TO A LITERAL PRISON IS NOT OKAY

AND TEACHERS HAVE THE AUDACITY TO TELL ME IM NOT PUTTING IN EFFORT OR PARTICIPATING ENOUGH

IF I WASNT PUTTING IN EFFORT I WOULD BE FAILING AND MAYBE IM NOT PUTTING IN FULL EFFORT BUT I HAVE A'S AND B'S ON ONE OF THE STRICTEST GRADING SYSTEMS IN SCHOOLS. IF I DID PUT IN FULL EFFORT I COULD HAVE BEEN PUT UP A GRADE LEVEL AND BE PASSING WITH THE HIGHEST GRADES IN MY CLASS.

TELLING ME THAT I DONT CARE IS BULLSHIT BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO CARE BUT I DO CARE BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE ABLE TO HELP MY LITTLE SIBLINGS GET A GOOD PATH READY FOR THEM SO THEY CAN PASS WITH FLYING COLORS AND HAVE TEACHERS LIKE THEM

IF I DIDNT CARE I WOULD WALK OUT OF THE SCHOOL AND LEAVE

IF I DIDNT CARE I WOULD TURN IN BLANK ASSIGNMENTS AND PICK FIGHTS WITH THE TEACHERS

IF I DIDN'T CARE I WOULDN'T FUCKING HESITATE TO BEAT UP THE KIDS WHO DON'T TREAT MY SISTER GOOD BECAUSE GOD KNOWS THEY DON'T

DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES IVE THOUGHT ABOUT GOING TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL IN THE LAST FOUR DAYS? TWENTY SIX TIMES THAT I CAN RECALL. A MENTAL HOSPITAL WITH THE CRAZIES AND BAD SCHIZOPHRENICS WHO MAYBE AREN'T THE BEST PEOPLE

OR JAIL! IVE CONSIDERED GOING TO JAIL BECAUSE AT LEAST THEN YOU GET FOOD AND SHELTER FREE (off other people's taxes) AND IF I ACT INSANE ENOUGH I MIGHT SCORE MYSELF AN ISOLATED ROOM WITH A STRAIGHTJACKET! IT WONT AFFECT ME THOUGH BECAUSE THATS SAFETY. ITS A TIME WHERE I CAN FOCUS ON MYSELF AND NOT OTHERS.

SO I DO CARE

AND I AM PUTTING IN EFFORT
BUT THATS PUSHING IT

AND ITS MAKING ME CONSIDER THINGS THAT MAYBE SANE PEOPLE WOULDN'T

LIKE THE WHOLE HOSPITAL ISSUE FOR DEHYDRATION. GIVE ME THREE WEEKS AND ILL BE IN THERE. THE REASON IM NOT ALREADY IS BECAUSE I FIGURED THAT A CATHETER WOULD BE INVOLVED AND I DON'T WANT THAT. THATS LITERALLY THE REASON IM STOPPING MYSELF.

OR CUTTING. MAYBE IF I SHOWED ON THE OUTSIDE HOW I FELT ON THE INSIDE THEY WOULD GET ME HELP. MAYBE IF I STOPPED TAKING CARE OF MYSELF, STOPPED EATING AND SHOWERING AND STARTED LEAVING PERMANENT MARKS ENGRAVED ON MY SKIN THAN MAYBE I WOULD GET HELP.

BECAUSE TO BE HONEST IM DONE. When i asked how old you guys thought I was I got answers that ranged from 14-19.

Let me tell you- Im on the lower end of the scale.

Imagine that. A newer teenager, so fed up with the worlds shit after living in a world where all they know is pain and suffering that they don't allow themselves to be happy out of pure fear.

Where they consider such audacious things.

Is that prove enough that things need change? Because I know I'm not the only one thinking those things.