Disastrous Love {BWWM} ⚠️MAJOR CHANGES AND EDITING❗️

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Reign

I've been wondering around this big ass house alone for the the past 3 hours. I haven't spoken to nick since he dismissed me. And I've watch Natalie flirt with him all day. I've watched him communicate with everybody with big smiles and laughs. And not once did he look around to look for me. Or to check up on me. Nothing.

I can't watch this any longer. I'm not sure what I did to him.  He said he needed space like I was smothering him. Like I was being clingy or needy to him. I dropped my head making an exit for outside. I've found this path that I've Been walking down. I kept following it until I ran up on huge field with a pond.

I instantly took my heels off sitting Indian style on the grass. This is the perfect spot to be when you need to relax and mediate. I closed my eyes throwing my head back feeling every inch of the sun soak into my skin.  I moaned from how good this felt.

I could feel someone sitting next to me.  "I'm sorry I didn't know you would be out here. I usually come out here when I'm overwhelmed and need peace." He spoke. I nodded.  "You're fine. I guess we're out here for the same reason." I spoke before I welcomed myself with silence. Nothing but the sounds of nature and the sun. "Come on. I want to show you something." He said with his hand extended down towards me.

I grabbed ahold of his hand and he pulled me up. "Are you good?" He asked. I nodded fixing my clothes . "Follow me."

I followed behind him. We were going deeper into tie field. And further away from the house.  I gasped. There is no way. I feel like I'm in Alice in wonderland. "Are you shitting me. Those are bunnies with tuxedos on. Am I crazy?!" I ask so excited to see what I was seeing.

He laughed hearing me freak out. "We've had em for a couple of months now. They were suppose to be apart of Romes wedding. But I was told it was off." I nodded. "Rome caught the guy having sex with some girl. And moments before everything was about to start she caught him masturbating to a Picture to the same girl." I filled him in on what happened.

"That's a new one." He responded. "It was kitchen ware being thrown at him. Glass was everywhere." I said watching the bunnies hop around. "I knew I should've came earlier." He spoke to himself.

"Thank you for this." I said now watching him face me. "What's bothering you?" He asked. I was silent for a moment before I spoke.  "You ever felt so alone and abandoned in your own family?" I asked him.

He nodded. "It just feels like everybody look down upon you. Or either keep and extra eye out for you like you're such a disappointment or a fuck up." He answered. I nodded vigorously. "Exactly." He took the words out of my mouth.

"No matter what always be you. No matter how looked upon you are.stay true to yourself. And everything will come after that. Sometimes you have to put you first. And stop caring how they look at you. Fuck em." He said making so much sense. "You're right." I said smiling.
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I'm heading back towards the house feeling better after the conversation I had with Joseph. Maybe I was looking at everything wrong. He's right. I won't feel bad for being me. I won't apologize for who I am because it's me. 

I'm currently walking around looking for nick. We have to talk. I can't let this bs slide. It's been to long we've been in the same area with no communication. The fuck type shit is that. I heading down the hall looking for our room. I'm literally inches away from when the door opens. And nick walked out. I started to head towards him until Natalie stepped out behind him.

He noticed me and his eyes widened. " I don't want to hear shit you have to say. Keep it to your damnself. You aren't ashamed of yourself to be this age and to behave like this.no wonder you're ok with talking to me being 18 because no woman in her right mind would put up with your shit nick. Look at you. Look at you both. And Natalie you're almost 30 you're not hot infact you look old, old asf I might add. so stop walking around here like you run shit. And you can take everybody man. why are you still alone. Why is no one is fighting to be with you. You should wonder why you're the age you are and you are no mans dream literally. So desperate you're willing to do anything than be left with yourself."

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