Disastrous Love {BWWM} ⚠️MAJOR CHANGES AND EDITING❗️

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Nick

It's been a month since I last heard about reign. I still can't come around her. I've tried but they won't let me. They completed alienated me away from her. So I don't know what to do. I tried everything. Everything is a dead end. I can't keep sitting here waisting away. I have to move on in life. I tried everything I can.

Here I am sitting inside the car outside of the college. You're good. You're great. You can do this. Reign wouldn't want you slacking. She wouldn't want you moping around. I really miss her. I've barely made it passed this month.*starts to sniffle*

Alright nick get it together. Get yourself together. *takes deep breathe while exiting the car*

Here I am walking inside the class seeing the whole class present. And I notice little bears and balloons sitting on her desk.

"We're so sorry for the loss!!" They all said to me. I don't think they don't know anything about reign. But she's fine. She might be in a coma but she's fine. I hope.

I was a little puzzled to why they would be saying that and why would that be on her desk.

I walked closer to her desk seeing r.i.p. they could be talking about someone else. Right. No what am I kidding this is her desk but sh-

I grabbed ahold of my chest. It was kind of hard for me to breathe. This pain is unbearable. It hurts worse than stomping your toe.I ran up out of the class running outside. I need fresh air. I can't breathe. I can't breathe. I just begin to scream and cry.

"WHYYYY WHYYYYY???!!!! WHY ME?? WHY HER??? WHYYYY??!!!"

I dropped to my knees holding my head. No. This can't be. She didn't die. I told her she wasn't. I promised her she wasn't. I made that promise and it didn't come true. Whyy??? She was so young. She had so much ahead of her. Whyyy??? I need my baby. I need my reign. Nooo. I wasn't there for her. I wasn't there for her. It's all my fault. It's all my fault.

"Nick." I heard my name being called softly. I looked up but putting my head back down quickly seeing her reign. I closed my eyes and I could see her smiling and giggling.

I begin to rub them shaking my head trying to hold everything down. But I can't.

"Nick." I heard it being called again. I didn't answer whoever the person was. I felt a light tap on my shoulder.

But I didn't move. I felt it again which caused me to look up. "Kaylee." I said

"Nina called and told me everything. I'm so sorry for what happened." She said hugging me i hugged her back crying into her shoulder.

"I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know what to do next. I don't know what do. What do i do now?" I said feeling my heart aching like it never ached before.

"That's why I'm here to help you nick. I know this is going to be a tough time. I'm not going to tell you that it's going to be okay because it's not nick. It's painful. But I'll help you get through this. Every step of the way." Kaylee said hugging me tighter

I nodded my head wiping my eyes and face. I didn't get to apologize properly to her for blowing up on her. I begin to get short of breathe.

" the day she was hit.She asked me was she going to die. I told her no. I can't believe . That was the last time that I'll ever see her that's not right. It's not fair. Everything was good until her dad showed up everything. He showed up and took her away from me. In a blink of an eye. And he never really was there for her. The days she spent crying about her mom and talking abour her i was there to console her. " i said to my self. " I'll never forgive myself. This time I didn't hold her or console her. I let her run off. Then boom her body went flying until she hit the ground. It was to late then. Her body was all beat up badly. I could never erase the way she looked. We would have never ran into her father if i didn't punch my truck and she had to drive me there." I said looking at my arm that was still kind of bruised up.

I feel dead inside. I feel dead. The person that brought me joy and happiness is gone. And now my heart is gone and my joy. I don't want it back. Because I don't want to be happy with no one else

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