Disastrous Love {BWWM} ⚠️MAJOR CHANGES AND EDITING❗️

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Reign

I haven't talked to jasmine, lucas, or Keith. None of my friends. The first person I thought about was nick. I was so ready to get back to him. I didn't think about my friends. Or how they must feel. They think I'm dead. I have to let them know that I'm not. That I'm ok. I'm such a bad friend. Fuck. I'm missing my friends so bad. I can't wait till things get back to how they use to be.  I'm missing how things use to be before I met nick. My life wasn't the best but it was ok. So much has taken place since I met him. Unnecessary stuff I didn't Really have to go through. But I chose to because I love him.

But now I can finally breathe. Im hurting but I'm ok. And im fine w that. I'm here. I'm alive. I'm ok.  If I overcame this there is nothing that I can't handle. Right? I'm strong I got this. I beat death so theres no way I can't overcome a little heart ache.

Ive recently moved. It's fully furnished to my liking thanks to Kizzy. I really appreciate her. She's been helping me so much. She's been doing everything literally. I can't thank her enough. I'm so grateful.

I'm still not able to drive on my own yet. I'm still fearful right now. I haven't accomplished much but me being able get around on my own.  But I did convince Kizzy to go back to school. She's been at my hands and feet. She's done more than enough.

Im currently sitting in my living area doing stretches. a little therapy. Trying to get my body back use to being mobile. After doing my daily therapy I decided to call  up Lucas.

"Who is dis?" He questioned causing my heart to jump w excitement. "It's reign." I spoke softly. Nervous bc I'm not sure how he'd respond to me.

"Reign?" He questioned. I nodded forgetting that he can't see me. "I'm sending you my address we have a lot to catch up on." I said already sending him the message. "I'm on the way." He responded before I hung up.
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There was a knocking at my door. I rushed to opening it. I immediately jumped into his arms. Engulfing him w my love. I inhaled his sent which put my ease. His body warmth made me so happy to feel bc I know that I'm not dreaming.

"I missed you so much. I missed you." I repeated trying not to cry.

"What's going on reign? I was told you wus dead. What's going on?" He asked carrying me inside closing the door.We both sat on the couch and I begin to tell him everything. "Why would ya pops do det?" He asked.

"Because he doesn't want me with nick. He feels like hes taking advantage of me. But he wasn't. But we're not together another more though."i replied. He held onto me so tight kissing my head. He didn't let me go. "I'm so glad you're ok." Lucas spoke breaking the short silence. I melted into his arms. I miss my friend.

" are you okay tho?" He questioned. Yes I'm fine actually. I'm feeling good right about now. It feels good to be alive. To be awake." I said smiling.
He nodded his head blinking his eyes numerous of times. "don't cry. I'm fine everything is fine." I said hugging him. He sighed holding me even tighter.

"The thought of you being.. dead killed me inside reign. It still does right now." He spoke I sat my head up seeing tears flood his face. " don't cry. I'm here." I spoke wrapping my arms around him feeling my shoulder getting wet. " I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere." I spoke my heart hurting for him. This impacted him more than I thought. I hate seeing him hurt like this. There's nothing I can do take it away. The damage has already been done.

I held onto him so tight not knowing what else to do. "I love you reign. You're my family. Don't scare me like that no more re." He spoke. I nodded. "I won't. I won't."

I dried his face. "Awe sweet face." I said causing a smile to spread across his face. Soon after followed with laughing. "What the fuck did you just call me?" He asked laughing. "Sweet face." I said joining in him Laughing. "I didn't know what to say. Ok." I added continuing to laughing.

"Yeah don't ever say that again re. What the fuck!" He laughed. "Trust me I won't everrrrr say it again." I added w so much emphasis. "Good."

"Not to be insensitive or rude as fuck. But I'm glad you left that nigga Alone. You have so much life ahead of you. You need to enjoy and live it re." He spoke staring at me. "I been wanting to talk to you about that before everything but you seemed happy." He added.

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