Seductive Vibrations Book Five To Six

Book Five, Chapter Five

Jackson is with Alena, I know that, I can't bring him away for this. Picking up the phone I text Troy, hoping he has space for me for a few days, I can go to my apartment, but I know Rebecca will be there still. 

Troy replies, I know I am welcome, but I always like to ask, driving I meet him at the pub local to him, walking in I sit getting a drink. I should talk to Jackson about this, he at least knows what I am like, sure Troy knows but not like Jackson. Sitting drinking, Troy walks in, he is happy, and I am ready to burden him with my life.

"Maria?" He looks at me as he sits down, ordering his own drink.

"Do you ever wonder if you made the right choices at the beginning of the relationship that led to now?" I look at him my question waiting for an answer, he shakes his head.

"Never mind asking me questions, what has happened?" I wish he was Jackson, Jackson would understand more, but I don't want to pull him away from the new life he has.

"I gave up Rebecca, I can't get someone else out of my mind. Today, though, standing with Maria she was gone, no thoughts of her. She finally let me fuck her out of the bed, then totally flipped and admits that James gets to fuck her anywhere he wants. Then she pretty much told me to leave" He looks at me shocked shaking his head.

"You need to walk away from her, we have all told you she is just fucking with you for the money. I think the fact James gets it and you don't should be the thing to make you realise" 

See he is no help, Jackson would have asked what I did, why she freaked out, sure I did nothing wrong and when she pulled my hand away I let her, but still Jackson would have asked. I don't want to think of her as staying just for the money, I love her too much to think that of her.

"I love her too much to walk away" I do, and I wish sometimes I didn't because it would be easier. Sitting we drink and talk, not like I normally would with Jackson but it helps, it gets the thoughts out of my head, getting back to his, it is late, his wife and kids are asleep, the guest room is set up. 

I get in bed and sit thinking about what I have done, was I really in the wrong? The phone beeps, picking it up, Jackson is calling. 

I should have known Troy would tell him. Answering his voice already helps calm me down a bit.

"What exactly did you do Marcus?" He is waiting, expecting the worst, but I would never hurt Maria like that.

"Nothing, sure my hand pinned hers down, but when she pulled I let go, I may have nibbled, and I mean nibbled on her neck. Towards the end, yes my hand grabbed her throat but not like I do it to others, I was soft and gentle" Why am I listing it and sounding like I have hurt her?

"Nothing else? You let go when she said to?" He is making sure I didn't force her, like I would force her. She isn't a brat like Rebecca, who fights me off, but is screaming for me to fuck her.

"I let go, I don't care about that I don't give a shit she freaked out. She lets that dickhead fuck her anywhere he wants just not me" He is laughing, I knew he would, he knows who I am on about.

"Marcus, that dickhead probably can't lift her with his stick arms, honestly, forget about her, why are you not with Rebecca and hiding at Troy's?" 

Now do I tell him the truth? He is like my brother and I don't think I can lie to him, and no doubt he already knows anyway.

"I can't, I let her go. Every time I touched her, or did anything to her all I could see was Alena, I know it's fucked and I won't even touch Alena or look at her like that, but I can't go to Rebecca"