NTOMBI (GIRL)

Chapter 12

The day has been so wonderful. I just finished having lunch with father Michael and his son, Chris. Church was awesome with fahter Michael's message. It was all about forgiveness and starting on a new slate with another person. I think I'm ready to move on. I want to live my life with no regret and forget about some of my past. As for Muzi my heart can't let go. No matter the distance and the amount of convincing I've given myself. God knows how much I love that man.

"So Ntombi. Finding everything okay for you around here?" Father Michael ask. He's been so nice and wonderful. This man is really God sent. I feel our meeting had been fate. I wanted to go venture on my own because I felt like I was burdening them but Chris and his dad have been able to convince me otherwise.

Sometimes I just feel so guilty because I haven't told them everything. They have no clue whatsoever that I almost married a prince from my village. They shouldn't know, at least I think so because I just want to forget him already!!

"Thank you so much for even caring that much. You and your son have been my saving grace. Why wouldn't I when I live with two angels. I'm really greatful father." I answer back. There's not much I could ask for really. These people have treated me far better than my own mother for crying out loud. 

We continued eating and chatting...

Precious POV. 

I'm a bitch, that much I know. But I have to adapt to my surroundings. I don't want to be poor for the rest of my life. My mother died but before she did she resented me. I have shamed her, she says. Being impregnated and dumped at a young age did it for me. I feel like sh*t at the moment. My conscious is gnawing at me. I just betrayed my own daughter for a piece of junk who can make my life hell and luxurious at the same time.

Why can't she understand, the woman who've told me count less times how much hell I deserve in my head. She says my daughter is somewhere dead in a bush and she's coming back to haunt me. I feel like somehow that voice is my reasoning but at the same time a curse because it tortures me.

I start pacing up down. That voice can't seem to shut up.

'Find her' -softly.    'find her' - now the voice is more demanding.    'go on, run!!'     'she needs you, there's still hope'  - I feel her wailing inside my head. 

'Or better yet, expose him. Make him pay!!! Damn it!' - that makes me laugh like a mad woman, or I'm I? 

"Precious!!!" I hear sipho call.  

    'You see what you've turned yourself into, a damned slave. Mother never treated us this way. She loved us.' I try ignoring the hissing in my head

"Baba!" I hollow back. I go to him as he tells me.

"You telling me all this while you've been in there doing nothing. Woman I need my food!" Argh typical. I internally roll my eyes.

'You see.'

"Shut up!! Now please, just shut that anus of your mouth." I say to the voice but as I turn to see sipho's face I realise that I've said that out loud. 

Next... the painful turn of my head and the snapping of my jaw impacted on me. He punch slapped me. Is that even possible?

'You deserve it, slut. Now unless you stop being a baby he won't stop. Please we can't go on like this.' -This is the first time she's ever begged me.

I stood up and wiped away my tears as I told myself that this has to end. The pain, the abuse and I want my freedom back. Why is that I feel so caged up with the man that claim to love me so much. Even the man who abandoned me with a baby on the way never treated me like this. I went inside the cooking hut. Picked up the pot that was boiling in the fire. My mind and my body speaking two different languages. As to what I was going to do with that pot didn't even cross my mind. I just went with the flow. It felt as if this was something I should've done a while ago.

I walked into where sipho was. The trance that I was in was snapped by the painful screams of sipho. 

"What have you done, witch!" He yelled over and over again and you could tell by his voice the amount of pain he was in. I covered my mouth. Did I just pour a freaking boiling pot on top of the all-mighty-glorious-sipho? 

'You are insane.' The voice said to me. 

"Isn't this what you wanted?"I answered back The voice in my head. Sipho obviously thought I was talking to him.

"Please help me." He begged with eyes full of tears. I tilted my head toward him and laughed at his miserable self. 

"Damn it sipho! Handle the pain like the man you claim to be." I spit the words back to him. This is amazing!!!

"I swear I'll make you pay for this. Help me now or else..." he ran out of words. "Please I need help." 

'Okay. I think that's quite enough' -she said , cooing me.

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Phew! for a moment there I lost inspiration. I know short but I tried. Comment and vote. Till next time.