Never meant to || fillie

A gift from you.

"So what time is the rest of the party getting here?"
" Noah texted that they were in their way 10 minutes after we left my parents house so it shouldn't take long"
We've just arrived to my dads cabin. Isabel and I come here every summer with her grandparents and we usually spend about a week.
" woah, I forgot how big this place is."
"Yeah five years can do that."
I loved the ride up here and I did want to just forget for the day that we still needed to talk but it just came out.
I don't even have to turn my head to know that he's more than likely staring at me.
"Isabel's asleep... do you mind carrying her to one of the rooms?" Finn agrees and takes Isabel in his arms. Seeing them side by side just makes me feel... it's really unexplainable. It's the most amazing feeling. To think that she is a piece of us. As I look at them go into the cabin I realize I can never love anyone as much as I love these two people. Finn may have hurt me when he left but, he left while giving me the greatest thing to ever happen to me . Sure he hasn't apologized but maybe he was hurting, too. I never real-

Incoming call from steph ❤️

Steph? Steph! He's seeing someone. Of course he's seeing someone. He's Finn fucking Wolfhard. America's heartthrob! God what did you expect Millie! It's been five years, of course he's moved on. Why do you think he keeps telling YOU to move on. Why did he not tell me? Why should he tell me? I'm no one in his life. He's seeing someone and she's probably beautiful and smart and-

(4) new Text Messages form steph ❤️

STOP INTERRUPTING!

Who is she and doesn't she know he's on vacation? Also how the hell does he get great signal here? I know I shouldn't and I know if he finds out he'll be really mad. But he's already mad so who cares. Besides he left it here . With no password. Like always... so he's basically telling me to go through it.

F-Morning! I'm heading out in about ten minutes and wanted to let you know I might not have signal so don't worry too much babe. ( 7:28am)

S-Good morning❤️ just text me when you can (7:45am)

S-Hey I'm on my way to a shoot so if you do call I probably won't be able reply ! Just text me babe (8:03am)

S-I need to talk call me when you can!!! (8:24am)

S- My schedule got moved around so I might be able to go see you sooner than expected! Call me when you can bubs !❤️❤️(8:53am)

I see Finn come outside again and I basically throw his phone back to where it was. She's coming. Here. To my home. To see him. I need to know who she is and why is she coming if he said he wanted a break from that life.
" hey millie are you ok?"
"Yeah. Why don't we head inside . It's getting kind of cold here." 
We walk in and Finn heads to the kitchen to make his famous hot  cocoa while I start the fire. Let me just point out , Finn makes amazing hot cocoa. He walks back into the living room just as I end my call with Sadie.
"Who was that?"
"Sadie, they said they're on their way they just had to stop to pump gas."
Even though everything was ok about an hour ago , now I feel like I'm in a room with a stranger.
" are you sure your okay mills?"
"Huh? Oh  uh yeah just.. lost in thought I guess. What's up?"
" no I just uh. I was taking off Isabel's jacket when I uh . I pulled a little too hard and I broke her necklace... Millie I didn't know you kept the ring."
That ring made the pain even stronger.
" I did. For a long time I hid it. Didn't want to see it because it only made me think of you. Then one day the party decided that since Isabel is always at the boys house, they should turn your room into her little play room."
" that explains the pink walls and the big doll house."
" yeah. Well I was at work that day so Lizzie took care of her. When she took her home that night, I was looking through her backpack to take out her clothes she had gotten dirty when I found your little black journal. Did you leave that on purpose?"
" yeah. I knew you would hate me. And I knew that no matter what I'd say you'd never forgive me. I know you use to love that thing so I wanted you to keep it."
" I just wanted an apology."
We were both looking at each other not realizing how close we were.
" anyway when I found the journal it made me relive everything and I thought about the ring. Even touching it hurt but I didn't want to throw it away. I couldn't bare to do it so I gave it to Isabel. When you gave it to me you said that whoever wore it had your unconditional love and even though you didn't know, I knew you'd love her . I was going to tell her eventually that it was a gift from you. I was just waiting to see when I'd be ready."
" I'll love her till the day I'm gone . And although I'm still mad at you. I'll always love you too. For giving me a beautiful daughter."
We're both sitting dangerously close and it's a situation that won't end good. I have no right to ask but I have to do something to break the tension building up between us.
" who's steph?"
As soon as her name left my mouth, he looked at me with a a look of pure shock
"Wh- what?"
"Who's steph?"
" how do you know about steph?"
" she was calling you."
" you went through my phone?"
" not on purpose! You left your phone in the truck and I saw she was calling . You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. I was just curious."
" wait millie don't leave. Steph is my girlfriend. We've been dating for a few months. I was going to tell you but then you said I was a dad and suddenly that wasn't that important to me . "
I sit back down next to me not letting go of the hand he used to stop me forming moving any farther.
" you didn't have to tell me .its your life. "
" the mother of my child has a right to know who I'm dating"
The mother of my child
Doesn't that sound lovely?
We sit there . Catching up on our life's as we wait on the rest of the party ( who by the way are taking way too long.)
I asked about his parents and if he's told them yet, he said he told nick and made him promise not to say anything yet. (He wants to tell them in person.)
He asked me a few questions about work but mainly things about Isabel.
As much as I keep telling myself , I can't hate this man. Sure he's someone else's now but I know he'll forever be a part of my life and I'm ok with that. As long as Isabel is happy, I can live with it.

So this SUUUCKS !!!! but I'm sick and had nothing else to do but write. Also I'm starting a new book (yay). So be on the look out??? Might be mileven ???  And most likely will write the first chapter tonight or tomorrow. Idk i suck at posting on a schedule.

One more thing , anyone know any good Fics  on either here or ao3 ?????

Hope you like it ❤️

Oh and sorry I keep changing the covers! I change my mind a lot !