Killer Queen|✔️ (Book 1)

31. Alpha Dog Loves Megalomanic

        I was so angry that nothing else had set in, like the fact that Kiwi and I weren't friends anymore and that I'd have to move on without him, that I'd never see the inside of his room again and that I had no idea how I was going to talk to Dan now. I don't think I'd even gotten to the point of wondering why he'd said that. That text was so hateful I just couldn't get over it and that's all I focused on. There was nothing I'd done that he could prove; no paper trail. So, to say that without talking to me about whatever it was and not being man enough to tell me the reason, made me not even miss him.    

I entered the classroom I was assigned to test in and took my seat, hoping no one would try to talk to me. For hating everyone, I had more people then you'd expect try to talk to me on a daily basis. Kiwi was the last one to rush into the room. He slammed a hand on my desk as he walked by, sitting in the seat caddy corner from me.
K: "Taylor, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that shit to you last night."
He whispered but was so loud, I wondered why he even bothered. I turned around and scowled at him; trying to replicate the look he'd given me the day before.
T: "Don't speak to me."
K: "Please listen to me, I can explain."
T: "No, you can go drop dead, Kiwi. You can go fucking rot in pieces. Leave me alone."
The teacher walked in, so I didn't have to speak to him anymore. I didn't want to hear his apology and he didn't deserve to be my friend. I think I was so angry at myself for not being able to walk away from Dan that I thought if I stuck to my guns and walked away from Kiwi, I was somehow redeeming myself.

      When the test was over, I got up as fast as I could, thinking I could make it out of the building before he could get to me. He jumped up with me and almost knocked desks over, trying to follow me out into the hall. I planned to take refuge in the nearest girl's bathroom, as I sped up and my adrenaline was pumping but he was still right on my tail. I knew if I did, he would wait outside for me to come out and I'd be trapped in there all day and possibly the rest of my life. I decided to book it to the front lawn and see if my mom was out there waiting for me. I knew he wouldn't cause a scene in front of her.

I ran down the stairwell and burst through the doors to the outside. She wasn't there. I was trapped. I tried to hide behind a tree but I was already spotted.
K: "Goddamn it, Stop!"
He stood at the top of the concrete steps that led to the sidewalk, as I stared up at him.
T: "No! I'm done with you! I don't even know what I did to make you say that stuff. You want me to stay away from you? You got it!"
K: "I can't do this anymore."
He spoke like it was more addressed to himself than it was to me. He stared at the ground like he was too ashamed to face me.
T: "Do what anymore? Be friends!? Because you don't have to! We're not, anymore!"
K: "I ruined everything. I thought if I made you hate me first then you'd want nothing to do with me and I'd feel better. I don't wanna ruin our friendship but I can't keep doing this to myself."
T: "What the hell are you talking about?"
K: "...I love you."
T: "Yeah, like a thorn."
K: "Jesus Christ, not like a fucking thorn! I'm in love with you! I've been in love with you for the past two years! I never wanted Alexis or any other girl, I only wanted you but you made me so nervous, I never told you! I've never felt like this and I don't know what I'm supposed to do but I can't pretend this isn't happening anymore; I'm going fucking insane!"