Backstage

Chapter 4

Sofa days are just bliss, I thought as I snuggled under the red fair isle blanket on a rare afternoon off work. Millie was with sugar and Esme was doing her costa shift so me and Amber had the whole flat to ourselves. I clicked the button that read watch and the latest episode of In the club was on, I was meant to be watching it with Esme but I would just watch it again with her. After all I was obsessed with the programme.

Swooning over Dev I went and found some chocolate that I had hidden from the others and a milky bone for Amber, It was chucking it down with rain outside and I thought of Millie getting soaked. All of us had rode when we were younger but I had drifted away after getting a job so I was officially not participating in any sport. Unless of course you should consider sex a sport. That brought back the pang of guilt;it was a week since me and Ashley had our argument which is not uncommon yet he still had not come back.

I couldn't help but think how stupid I had been to let him slip away, my love for Ashley was forever and to have it hanging around with no destination was heartbreaking. The thought that our relationship had ended made me teary and a small tear escaped my eye. I gently wiped it away before considering phoning him.

Having decided not to phone him, I had remembered the incident last time I phoned him, I could have sworn I heard a girls voice in the background but he had yelled at me quite a lot but assured me there was no one else. I loved Ashley. He made mistakes but dosen't everyone? He had indeed forgotten my 20th birthday, he had cheated on me with Kerry- a irish blonde girl with a arse the size of 10 watermelons yet tits that wouldn't even scrap a AA. We had got back together and put it down to a drunken mishap.

However, he was never violent or abusive towards me so in my eyes we had a healthy relationship. Should he decided to break up with me I am sure he would have one hundred girls already queuing, as for me I would be single for the rest of my life. Having decided it was essential that I hold on to this relationship, I decided I would pop around tomorrow.

When In the club finished I fiddled about with the DVD player so that I could watch History Boys. That also had Sacha Dwahan in it, talk about fan girl crush. I would love to date any actor, in my head I had fantasied about dating him but I knew that was never going to happen. I would want to be with someone who was recognisable yet not huge- so I was noticed but not in the public eye 24/7.

Sometimes I let my brain wander and as I clambered out of my day dream I realised that it was never going to happen- why would I even want that anyway I was perfectly happy with Ashley, or at least I hoped I was. Having just got to the good bit of history boys I heard the phone ring. No it wasn't the phone it was the door I pressed the button to hear who the person was although I was sure it was Esme, she often forgot the code to the gate outside.

"Belle, can I speak to you?" I heard a deep voice say through the muffled recording

"ASHLEY" I screamed. I pressed the green button which opened the black metal gates and quickly removed the history boys from the TV screen; Ashley hated my obsession with Sacha so if I was to rekindle my relationship we would hide Sacha for now. Hurrying around to put the pillows straight before running over to the large wooden door. I took a deep breath as I opened the door and smiled at Ashley.

"Hello" I smiled

"Morning" he said half heartily. His brown eyes lolled around in his head and his teeth where slightly stained but I thought he looked gorgeous even stoned.

"I am so sorry about the other day" I divulged

"You should be" he snapped back. There was a moment of pause where we just looked at each other, I felt as though a huge weight had been lifted If we had broke up yet somehow I could not let him go. I could feel my eyes welling up slightly, I must not cry in front of Ash, I thought quietly longing for him to just leave yet I had no idea why. "However, you do have a point. How about going out for a meal next Monday, we can do the whole go shopping thing go have a meal, go to the cinema and go for a walk and watch the sunset- you know that soppy shit"

"Aww Ashley, can we really?" I exclaimed in a moment of pure shock. He nodded as though embarrassed but leant in to kiss me. His kiss was warm and kind of dull, like one of those slaps which just kind of hits you. He really was a shocking kisser I thought as he varied from barely touching my lips to getting his tongue so far in my mouth I thought I might choke.

Parting, he took my hand in his sweaty palm and led me down the hall way to my room. Unbuttoning my denim shirt, Ashley fiddled with my necklace, unsure weather to take it off. He prodded my neck several times in the process of making his mind up but eventually chose to leave it on. Do they were necklaces in porn films? I was sure my life was pretty much the same as that of a porn star.

"Belle" Ashley asked coldly slurring the words

"Yes" I smirked back, I was just happy we were back together however for some reason not as ecstatic as I had anticipated.

"I don't want to have sex today" he stumbled on the sentence. This felt like a huge relief to me, I mean sex every time we saw each other was getting a bit tedious but I knew this wasn't right for Ashley.

"Okay then. I don't mind" I answered although trying to sound disheartened so not to offended but inside I was elated.

"I want you to suck me off" he said icily, he knew I hated this. I don't think I would ever suck anyone off- okay maybe Sacha.

"Really, are you sure." I asked wondering if would settle for a hand job instead, maybe even sex.

"Positive" Ashley continued forcefully.

"But last time, you didn't like me doing it!" I exclaimed suddenly remembering and hoping to convince him otherwise.

"Yeah cause you pulled away before I could even cum so when I did it went fucking everywhere. But this time you will wait. WON'T YOU" he screamed stressing the last two words.

"But what if"I paused thinking about how to phrase it. I knew I would pull away to soon the only persons cum I would have in my mouth was Sacha's. My fan girl obsession was starting to go a bit far now, if I could take his cum I could handle Ashley's.

"If what?" Ashley asked

"If I do the same again" I stammered

"Just wait till you have jiz in your mouth you twat! How hard can it be!" He exclaimed

"Okay" I replied but inside I wanted to run away, the thought of that shocking slimy substance in my mouth made my desire to vomit just a bit stronger.

I watched Ashley sit on the bed wearing pretty much nothing and it dawned on me that I knew I was bad at this, I wandered slowly towards the bed like I was about to be stripped and face public execution. He looked not even slightly concerned by me backing off, just sat waiting. Sitting down on the floor so I was level with the revolting dick that was incredibly small I froze and just sat swaying as I looked at it.

I felt my hands be pulled from my arms due to Aston's desire for me to touch the specimen. Gently and slowly I moved my hand up and down before cautiously leaning in, I teased him by rubbing my lips across the head of the vile creature. In the end I resorted to getting it done, while continuing to move my hands I wiggled it around my mouth. For a eternity he didn't cum, but then I felt it touch my tongue in the usual revolting way.

Then the door flung open. Jumping back I squealed. Stood in the doorway were Millie and Esme. "Oh my god Belle" screamed Millie before pulling the door shut. I had told them we had broke up so they had probably come to ask if I wanted pizza or something. Oh god help me I was thinking about food and I was still stood against a wall, cheeks puffed out, mouth full of....cum.

Spit or swallow. Spit or swallow. What the hell should I do, I felt so sick now that I had no other option unless I swallowed it but the way I felt I could guarantee I would have it coming back up my throat in a couple of minutes. Without thinking I ran to the balcony and spat it out over the edge into the river. How do girls do that and swallow it? I thought walking back in the bedroom. Ashley was getting dressed now, he smiled. "See easy! Shame about the gate crashing twats"

"Hey it's not there fault they live here" I protested

"Well I will see you half 9 on Monday prompt" he said ambling out keen to avoid my argument.

When I went left the bedroom and Ashley had gone I went to were Millie and Esme were sat looking in shock-still!

~B x

P.S sorry it's so short been so busy with other stories and stuff I may have forgotten to write this.