Backstage

Chapter 16

I had got back home at about 5 last night to find Esme out. Millie was still on the island. I hated the 'island' as my grandad and his girlfriend called it. I was taunted by a week there as a depressing 15 year old who had withdrawal symptoms from her straighteners. I had a free house and had already said goodbye to Amelia.

It was sad seeing the little plane take off. It reminded me of when we used to discuss our dreams as kids. It was always Amelia to Australia and Belle to America. Her dream had become a reality but mine still clouded over me in a sea of regret. I had a lot to regret actually.

Dropping out of uni had still haunted me as if I did it for Ashley who by the way had not replied to my text. I gave the boy my everything and all he gave in return was his dick and a lot of arguments. I wanted a proper relationship now and I guess I was talking to someone but I haven't told you or the others about them have I!

Cardiff had been good, I had also been accepted. However after a few hours I had chose against going there. I mean it's a lovely place but I wanted something that didn't remind me of my welsh life quite as much. I was proud to be welsh don't get me wrong it just contaminated my life with memories.

I lit a cigarette as I laid down on the sofa- Millie wouldn't let me smoke in the flat but she was miles in the other direction and Esme was obviously out. I would be seeing her tomorrow though as she had asked me to come to some afternoon scene I was a extra in. Yay fun. Afterwards I was hoping to be meeting up with a special someone that the others didn't know about.

The special someone had asked me out for dinner and I had gone. It was absolute bliss. He was nothing like I would normally go for tanned with black hair and quite muscly he was a sweet guy. We had sat in a little restaurant that overlooked the river and a housing estate- okay that didn't sound glamorous at all but all the little lights in the dark were absolutely perfect.

It took me 3 attempts to decided what to wear. I had eventually decided on a high neck green dress which was figure hugging with green heels and a silver clutch. Acer came in wonderful black trousers and a grey shirt. After enjoying a romantic meal we decided to call it a night. We had kissed but not in too much of a forward way- just like a goodnight kiss. I liked him I could see us coming along nicely, if he could learn to talk a bit more.

I guess we were just learning each other's ways. It took time I had to learn from me and Ashley's mistakes as I didn't want another relationship like that, I think Acer liked me anyway he asked me out in two days time but I would have to lie to the others and say I was going out with Helen or something as they could sometimes be a bit overprotective and Acer was a sensitive soul, I thought he might be scarred off by one of there lectures.

I was dreading this whole extra thing, I hoped they wouldn't want me to wear a low cut top. Me and Amelia had done something odd today which I would probably now regret for the rest of my life. We had got a tattoo hers was a black anchor and a Australian flag. Mine was a navy anchor with a American flag. That sounds normal to you dosen't it well we got them done on our cleavage. Don't even ask. It looked a state at the moment it was red and swollen, classy look right!

I guessed I should go to bed as I finally stopped watching Zoella's videos and realised it was 1 o'clock. I laid in bed wondering if I had done the right thing even going to look at Cardiff. The interviewers had been so lovely and I felt they were actually interested in me not Millie or Esme who got all the attention for being far prettier that me. Cardiff had some hot boys actually, I saw a bloody gorgeous blonde actually. He was stunning I mean beautiful.

I woke with a start as my alarm clock cheerily bleeped next to me. I picked it up and threw it at the wall, the battery flew out and it stopped bleeping. I then resumed sleeping until I next woke up at 12. I went to go find some lunch/breakfast. Sitting at the table I suddenly noticed I was surrounded by paper, what the hell was all this there was a tree on my dining room table. I picked up a nearby piece and read the top 'Esme, Dan,Isaac, Sophie- film and media' shit! I had forgotten my scene today.