Backstage

Chapter 25

(3 weeks later)

Excited nervous and completely confused by everything I climbed into my car, we had broken up from college two days ago and today I was going to the hospital confirm everything. Sugar had been an absolute superstar recently and we were both enjoying life, I planned to go and see her after my appointment, but probably just a leisurely canter down the straight, depending on the weather.

The hospital car parks were always so bloody expensive, remind me to never park here again, I said to myself, making a mental note of it. I walked in my head full of thoughts completely mixed up, but I signed in and went to take a seat. Surrounded by empty chairs, I looked up to see megan, Esme had been friends with her at her school if I remember correctly, I had only met her once or twice but she recognised me and walked over to say hi. She had long wavy hair pulled back into a messy pony tail, despite being her usual smiley self, she looked tired and about 6 months pregnant. I spoke to her for 5 minutes before my name was called.

Nervously I walked through the door, the room was empty, I was meant to be in this room I swear that's what the annoy had said. What a surprise, miss blonde strikes again I have got lost in a hospital, that is made of two corridors. Thankfully a nurse was walking past, and she pointed me in the right direction. When I finally ended up in the correct room I had a handful of simple check ups and tests, before they confirmed my pregnancy. I was thrilled, okay it wasn't planned and it could have come at better time, but at 22 and in the best relationship with the best boyfriend surrounded by supportive friends and family, I knew somehow everything would work out.

I drove to the yard and couldn't wait to ride sugar, I would tell her first okay don't judge me, she might not understand word for word but she will get the idea, and she is the one person I trust the most. I tacked up and for the first time hoped I wouldn't bump into Eddie, I didn't want to tell him yet I wanted it to be at the right moment he might not take it well and at the moment I just wanted to be happy about it, don't get me wrong I had had doubts but I wanted the baby and nobody would change my mind. We want for a amble round the village and had a lovely canter and gallop up the straight, so cooled of by going to see my cousins, and she always loved going there because of the many apples and carrots they had stashed in the fridge for her.

After 2 hours I got back, untacked, putting on her stable rug I heard Emily come round the corner. She greeted me but was with a possible new customer so moved on to show them the other facilities.

I got home changed and sat on the sofa scrolling through winter coats on new look, when Esme came in she had been so busy with the editing I had barely seen her, and belle I hadn't seen much of either, she arrived back from download really down, and I can't get out what's up. Instead I decided I was best to be there if she needs me and too not go on as it only makes you feel worse when someone goes on a and on about something. Also I wanted it to be special when I told them about my unexpected news and the time had to be right, although I knew they would be supportive, whether they agreed or not it wouldn't be the same if I told the at the wrong moment.

I order a gorgeous brown coat and then ran a warm bath, whilst dithering over when how and where to tell Eddie. After various ideas I decided it would go out for a meal to Bellamy Italia where we went on our first date, he might get suspicious but who cares, if he were to be upset about it then he's not stuck in my flat or his so it won't be as awkward.

I rang him and much to my delight he was around that evening, I didn't want to tell him yet, but I knew I had to really, after all it was his baby too. I choose a simple cream dress with navy shoes and coat, I ought to make some effort but didn't want to make it a formal occasion.

I applied some natural make up but eventually ended up caked in it, oh well that was how it turned out most of the time so nothing unusual. He stood outside the doors to the entrance to the apartment block, we then walked hand in hand over the bridge, when he asked if I was about to dump him. I laughed still saying nothing but making general conversation.

We ordered our usual meals and sat and chatted about our days, when I started to try and break it to him gently.

"Isle of White was so good I hope we can go back soon, maybe next year? Right okay look there isn't really an easy way to tell you this, but you will either be happy or annoyed or completely confused, but I don't mind.... " i began saying.

"So you are going to dump me please don't I love you" he said starting to panic.

"Shut up you fool I will never dump you unless you want to be rid if me, just let me finish. You know how much I love you and I hope this will bring us closer and we can maybe move in together soon, but I am .... Pregnant " I said gradually becoming quieter, hoping he was as happy as I was.

"You mean with me right" he said

"Yes and you are stupid sometimes, who else have I seen in the last year"

"You really do make me the happiest man alive, I genuinely thought you were going to end it with me, I love you Millie, and no matter what I will be right beside you" he said, placing a hand on my stomach.

Wow that went surprisingly well, considering the circumstances. We went back to the apartment soon after we finished our meal the pair of us unaware of our surroundings. Just nobody else knows yet so keep it shhh I told him, I want to choose the right moment to tell the girls.

We had a good evening with Esme as well she was with a few friends and we joked about, they all drank but I had to awkwardly drink sparkling mango, but likely no questions were asked. Now I was just hoping belle was alright she had been out today but I didn't see her go and she wasn't back yet so I tried to ring her but she text back saying she would call later. I suppose I would have to wait until then but at least I knew she was alright.

I then left Eddie Esme and anyone who had come through the door, to continue watching TV and drinking whilst I went to bed.

<3

M

Sorry the chapters soppy, but thanks for reading xx