What If.. (Nemi)

Chapt. 14: Too Much..

Nick

I came back from the studio to record my voice to some songs, to discover that Demi needed to go to an hospital..

- What?! Why? - I asked Roshon

- She fainted and they took her to the hospital. We're going out now to see her

- I'll come with you

Me, Roshon and Alison got in a car since only three of us could go. We had nothing to shoot so it was a okay from the director

We walked into the hospital and went to the secretary who gave us Demi's room number

As we walked inside, I saw Demi smiling. She was connected to various machines and Alison couldn't help but sigh

- You scared us all! - she said laughing at Demi

- I'm sorry.. I'm still waiting for the news..

- Oh.. okay.. do you feel better?

- Yeah. Still a little weak though

She looked weak. She looked like a ghost with her white skin.. Alison said she was getting some food for her and ran out the door

- I gotta go to the bathroom..

I smiled at him and he walked out the door

- I leave you for some hours and you run away from me?

She laughed and I sat in a chair next to her, giving her hand a squeeze

- Yeah..

She looked down her smile disappearing a little.. - What's wrong?

She took in a deep breath and started to become red.. she was almost crying..

- Demetria Lovato? - I heard a doctor knock

- Yes..

He came inside and smiled at us - Well.. I have good news and bad ones.. You are authorized to get out in a few minutes and for the bad ones is that.. the cause of your blackout is blood loss.. the cut went through a main vein and it didn't cicatrize..

Blood loss? I looked back at Demi and she was now looking down at her hands again - Thanks doc.. - she said quietly

He nodded walking out of the room and closed the doors behind him

- Demi.. what happened?

She started crying even more and turned her wrists around showing me a nasty scar.. around it, there were lots of small scars some already clean and some red

My heart started breaking and my breath hitched

- I'm so sorry Nick.. please don't leave me..

- What? Who did that?

She cried even more and I felt my own tears coming.. this couldn't be..

- Me..

I froze.. what the fuck? How can someone do this to themselves? What was she? Why did she did this?

- Why? - I asked starting to cry as my hands darted away from her.. I couldn't believe this..

- Nick, please..

- Why do you do this? What the fuck is wrong with you?

Demi

- Nick, please.. - I reached toward him and he stood up

- Don't touch me!

I looked in his eyes and saw fear.. I shouldn't have told him..

- Please don't leave me.. I love you..

He stood there staring at me for a long time.. It felt like the time stopped.. everything slowly stopped moving and I couldn't wait to wake up from this nightmare.. the moment he closed his eyes looking away..

... Was the moment I knew I lost him..

- Don't you love me back?..

He said nothing and stared at the floor.. I nodded my head closing my mouth..

- It's too much Demi..

I nodded sitting straight. - Please leave..

He looked up and I looked away from him.. - Leave!

He turned away and just when I turned my head, he stopped.. - I'm sorry..

He turned around and I felt angry.. if he's not able to accept this, his not worth my time..

- Me too.. I wanted this to work..

He looked away and turned just when Alison came back with food..

Nick

Demi and I ignored each other for weeks.. We tried our best to not see each others faces.. unfortunately.. we still had to act all lovely with each other in the movie takes..

It still amazed me how she managed to keep that secret.. No one knew about it.. just me.

Today, was the kiss take.. How can I do it? She really scared me.. I still can't believe she does that..

The kiss was just one separate take from everything. A lady explained how to make the fake kiss and make it look real.. after a few questions and laughs from Demi, we went to our spots and looked at each other

I nervously looked down blushing.. yeah.. she scared me.. but I still feel something for her..

- Action!

I looked up and she did the fake kiss.. no passion.. just an awkward lip locking

- It has to be more real!

She sighed and he yelled action again.. the same thing happened

I heard her mumble "You want real? I show you real!"

I looked at her and she turned her face to me giving me a ironic fake smile

She's going to kiss me.. For real

The director yelled action and she took a deep breath. She pulled my face into her slowly, giving me a soft kiss.. My heart started to race in my chest just like the other times.

I put my hands on her hips and kissed back as she moved her hands to the back of my hair..

We pulled away smiling and the director yelled cut..

- Perfect! Can you do it again?

Demi's smile fell - Why?!

I stared at her.. didn't she liked it? Was it bad?

- Just to make sure

She sighed and turned to me - What?

- We need to talk! - I said whispering

- Oh.. so you wanna talk now? After you "said" I'm crazy?! - she said doing the air quotes

- Demi.. just 5 minutes..

She turned her face around and sighed crossing her arms - Okay.. Tonight.. at "Camp Star"

I nodded and the director turned around to watch us - Ready?

I sighed and looked at her face getting absolutely lost in her eyes for a second.. wow..

- Action!

She reached my face with her hands and smiled as I grabbed her hips. She slowly leaned up making our lips touch and started kissing me slowly.. I kissed back and ran my hands up her hips a little..

She pulled back and smiled sadly as I improvised and hugged her surprising her a little

She leaned her face against my clavicle and the director yelled cut