Rains of Hatred (Celebrity Series #1)

Hatred 60

I lost time, I lost strength, I lose hope and I lost inspiration. I've been writing while dealing some struggles of my life, but then, I keep coming back because writing, after all, is always my peace.

Everyone, this is the last chapter of my first Rains series. Thank you so much for the few reads! I dedicate this all for those who support especially to my cousin Shevreign! Thankyou for always pushing me up. I wish all the saints would bring you luck for Mathematics. Thank you so much and God bless us forever!

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Chapter 60

Share Experiences

Just like what he really wanted, I share my whole experience to him when I was on Texas. Nasa loob na kami ng kotse niya at titig na titig siya sa akin habang nagkukuwento ako. Walang kakurap-kurap. I'm already used to his deep stares at me since then but until now, I'm still intimidated by him.

"I didn't know about your family that much. You successfully hide that thing to me." he whispered and carressed my waist.

He was hugging me side way habang pareho kaming nakaupo sa backseat ng kotse. He left no spaces in between our legs kaya madali lang sa kanyang yakapin ang beywang ko.

"I don't want to bring my family's reputation while I'm on the world that they dislike too much. I don't share my experiencs to them and they don't share experiences too. Ang huling alam ko lang noon, may sakit si Mamo sa puso. Huli ko ng nalaman na lumalala na pala siya. That's why I left with no choice but to come with Kuya when he cried in front of me because our mother was dying." sabi ko.

He sighed heavily and placed his forehead on my shoulder. Pumikit siya ng mariin at pinisil ang kamay ko.

"A-And? How have you been after your mother's death, please?"

"I was the most miserable among us. I lost my mom without having good memories at her years back. Puro sakit ng ulo ang ibinibigay ko sa kanila lalo na noong nadawit ako sa krimeng dala ni Ericka. She worries too much to me, kaya siguro natrigger ng sobra ang sakit niya. I lost my time saying my last thanks and goodbyes too because in her 2 years of medication, she always went to operations and unconsciousness. Paminsan-minsan lang siya kung gumigising kaya hindi na talaga namin siya nakakausap ni Kuya. My mom's so pale and suffered a lot. Pati ako ay halos atakihin sa kalagayan niya kaya lahat ng atensyon namin ni Kuya buong dalawang taon ay nasa medications niya."

"And your financial problems? How was it?"

"Kuya and I left with no choice but to work hard. Nagsisideline si Kuya ng trabaho maliban sa pagpipiloto. Ako naman ay nagtatrabaho rin bilang assistant sa isang restaurant but I didn't let myself being so totally busy because I was assigned to take good care of my mom habang kumakayod si Kuya. Kapag nasa trabaho kami ni Kuya, si Ate Rowena ang nagbabantay kay Mama pero hindi rin kami masyadong kampante dahil sensitibo ang pagbubuntis ni Ate noon. Palagi rin siyang naisugod sa hospital kaya medyo hassle sa part ni Kuya."

"And in your part too, right?"

Tumango ako at ngumuso. "Pero sa amin lahat, si Kuya ang mas nahihirapan. He went too strong while working so hard for us. He went too strong when Ate Rowena was rushed to the hospital and he went too strong when I got so weak in my mom's death because I was really depressed. Wala akong nagawa noon kundi ang umiyak at magmukmok. Lalabas lang sa kwarto kapag ginugutom na talaga ng sobra, tapos nagmumukmok ulit. Kuya tried to be very patience to me kahit puro iyak at paninigaw ko lang ang natatanggap niya. He helped me recover and totally out of my depression."

Tumitig siya sa akin at napalunok. "D-Did you got hospitalized because of depression?"

"Luckily, no. All I need that time is a person who could be my comfort and my diary to share my pain. And Kuya serves it wholeheartedly to me. He helped me to cope up when I cried in so much pain to him. He helped to adjust. He finds way to make me happy until he decided to come back here to reign my whole recovery."