The Love That I Dreamed © ( Updating)

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The Night before , June 1996.

"Where do you think you're going?" he asked in an unusual tone.  

"I don't have time for this I'm going out!" Passing by him. 

Tommy grabbed my purse throwing it over the banster. 

Letting out a huge sigh, "Really is this what we're doing acting childish?"

He charged and I ducked into the corner, covering my face as he dragged me by the arm almost making me trip over the top staircase, holding onto the side of the stair lifting myself. I snatched my purse from the floor and dashed out the side entrance as he followed, thankfully Sabrina pulled up just in time for me to jump in her jeep, and we sped off into the city. 

"He's at it again! Huh?"

"Don't start okay, I just wanna have fun tonight."

she blurred up the music as we cruise the highway into the city making our way to the spot. The Cheetah Club.

Mark was the bouncer super cool guy, Jermery who was young single, and also Italian never let me or anyone else pay for drinks had a crush on me but knew who I was affiliated with and stayed as far away as possible. 

This was the break I needed to have, me and Sabrina had a great time, dancing drinking, and smoking a little bit of weed. 

Tommy and Fasco came through the back door, as the lights were low, I was dancing with a guy next thing I see is him, turning paller than a ghost, He grabbed me by the arm yelling at me as if I was a child in front of everyone.  while Fransco escorted me out, and I overheard him giving  Sabrina some choice words. After that, I'd never see or speak to her again. 

Get off of me I yelled as he dragged me upstairs to the master suite. 

"Give me the phone! The Pager! The Keys!"

"You won't be seeing outside for a while."

"What the fuck is wrong with you!" I yelled as he went through the dressers, looking for god knows what. Throwing everything, I heard the key turn. 

"Really!! Unlock the door! Stop playing unlock the door!" I said pulling on the door. 

Laying on the carpet it was no use, he was going to lock me in here forever. teary-eyed and nausea from drinking I began writing the song titled Forever. 

"Those days of love are gone
Our time is through
Still, I burn on and on
All of my life
Only for you."

The Next day Bedford, NY June -1996

With the Inability to sleep, I stayed up watching him sleep, I let out an annoyed sigh and gently pressed my hand onto my stomach in tears as I decided to get out of bed and went to the bathroom Staring at myself in the mirror, I couldn't believe I was trapped, I stared at the heart necklace that I had never taken off because to me it was a symbol of our relationship let alone my first ever diamond anything.

As I glanced at the bruise on my neck, from him choking me from the night before which was turning a slight dark purple.

The stress of the marriage finally got to me, I let a few tears fall as I felt a burning sensation I never felt before as I stared into the mirror, even more, I began to remove the necklace, I held it in my palm and closed my eyes, It's really over I thought to myself. trying to save face but it was way harder than expected.

As I silently prayed, slowly opening the bathroom door while noticing him still sleeping so peacefully, opening the dresser as quietly as possible laid the necklace inside, and slowly closed it back, I laughed a little at how stretched out he was as I walked over and gently kissed his cheek and walked out the room slowly closing the door behind me.