Complicated(Jenlisa)

Chapter 24

Chapter 24

Lisa moves her lips harshly on mine, her kisses shouts anger and frustration. Tears escape from my eyes when I finally felt her anger on me. She closed the door behind me and harshly leaned me on it while still kissing me mad,

"Lisa, stop" I started to cry when she harshly bits my lower lip, I felt the stinging pain on it making me push her shoulder with my hand but Lisa continued to kiss me with so much wrath and anger, different from the magical ones she used to give me before. Her grip on my arm tightened and she forcefully entered her tongue on my mouth

"Liz! Please stop.." I screamed and cried hard, Lisa removed her lips on me when she heard my sobs, I put both my hand on my face and continued crying

I know I should be happy now that she's finally mad at me but why am I feeling so scared of her right now?

She held both of my hand on my face and puts them down, she held the back of my head and lead me on her chest "Hush don't cry Jennie, I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry.." she whispered on my ears when I started to cry hard.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry baby"

I push her hard away, Lisa looked at me with so much sadness on her eyes. I wiped the tears on my face and turned my back to her, I was about to open the door and leave when she suddenly hug me in the back

"Don't leave me..i'm sorry baby, please don't leave me" her voice cracked again

"Let go of me Liz!" I yelled and tried to removed her hand clinging on my shoulder

"No I won't let go, I won't let you go! Baby we'll fight for this"

I want to! God knows how much I want to! But hell this is wrong! I closed my eyes and think about my family, my mom and dad, my brother. I can't afford to lose them, I love them as much as how I love Lisa! I am torn between my feelings for her and my family, I wanted to run away with her from all of this but I know the reality will surely hunt us forever.

"I'm nothing without you Jennie, please fight with me please.." she desperately pleaded and I heard her sobbing on my side, her hug tighten and I felt a tear landed on my neck

I know she's breaking and it's crashing me on the inside! No I can't fight, don't let your feelings control you again Jennie!

"Let go Lisa, you're hurting me" I said and stopped myself from crying, I need to be tough with this.

That is the key for her to let go of me, I can't face her right now because I may break, seeing her in a fragile state would make me want to put my hands on her shoulder and hug her tight.

No I can't do that, I can't anymore

"Jennie, don't let us go, fuck I can't baby, don't leave me.." Lisa sobbed on my back and softly held my hand

I faced her now and I could see the endless tears coming from her brown expressive eyes. She looked up when she tried to stop them from flowing. Oh my god! She's crying, my Lisa is crying in front of me! Oh my god!

"Jen if you're afraid of our parents then we'll face the consequences they will give! Just don't leave me, I can't live without you baby please?" her voice shattered

I closed my eyes and tried to stop the tears that starting again to form "Lisa are you hearing yourself? Face the consequences? You do know what kind of consequences we are going to face if ever we'll fight them?!"

She closed her eyes before she rubbed her hands on her face

"You think I didn't know Jennie?! For the fuck sake I'm already prepared for all of it! God knows how much I tried to run away from you because of this fucking feeling that I felt for you from all these years, He knows I am ready to sacrifice everything just for you! For you! I am not dumb and I am no idiot Jennie! Do you think I will let you feel that I love you if I didn't think about this thoroughly? I love you! I fucking love you! That is I am so sure about! So what the hell is your problem with me? Why can't you fight with me?!" she shouted on me