I love you more than I can ever scream. (Andy Biersack love story)

Chapter 16

Andy's POV

Once Kaysha left the bedroom I layed down on the bed and I cried. And I never cry. Ever. It fucking hurt seeing her in the bathroom with Ronnie. I thought she would never hurt me, but I was wrong. Completely wrong. 

I heard my door open and close and I looked up to see Jinxx sitting down on the bed.

"You alright dude?" he asked. 

I just looked at him. Do I look fucking alright?

"Sorry stupid question" he whispered.

I sat up and I wiped my eyes. I can't believe everything that has happened tonight.

"Maybe Kaysha is telling the truth" Jinxx said "I mean c'mon Andy, would she really do this to you?" he asked me

"Jinxx, I don't wanna talk about it." I said sternly. 

Jinxx sighed. "Listen Andy, I really don't think she has done anything wrong, I mean you saw her push Ronnie away didn't you?"

"Yeah but thats only because I walked in, if I didn't, she probably would have carried on" I said rubbing my eyes again.

"But Andy-"

"Jinxx, drop it. I'm going to sleep, night" I said laying back down on the bed and facing away from Jinxx. Jinxx sighed and got up and left. I dropped my head into my hands and started to cry again. I thought me and Kaysha were forever, well, thats what I wanted anyway, but she obviously didn't. The more I thought about her the more I realise how much I love her and consider forgiving her, but I don't think I could ever forget about this. I still love her so much, more than anyone.

I tried to go to sleep but my brain wouldn't let me. I kept replaying the images in my head of her and Ronnie kissing. I sat up and I sighed. I rubbed my eyes and I got up out of bed. I looked at the alarm clock beside me and it read 2am. I went out the bedroom and walked to where we keep the alcohol. I took a bottle of Jack Daniels and I got a shot glass and I began pouring myself several shots. It helped me to forget about what happened tonight, but I wonder how long for.

I looked towards the couch and I saw Kaysha asleep with make up down her face. She looked beautiful even when she had been crying. I wanted to sleep next to her but I couldn't. To be honest, I'm disgusted in what she's done. She cheated on me with one of my friends and I couldn't forgive neither of them for it. But maybe she is telling the truth....maybe he did come on to her first. I mean it would make sense considering they used to date and...wait no what am I saying, I saw her kiss him with my own eyes, of course she kissed him.

I sighed as I poured myself another shot of whiskey. I swallowed it and I felt it burn against my throat. I continued pouring myself shots until I knew that I had had enough. I looked at Kaysha again and I sighed. It's weird because when Scout cheated I hated her straight away but it's different with Kay, I don't hate her at all, I couldn't ever hate her...I still love her. I walked over by her and I stroked her hair.

"I can't believe you cheated. I can't believe I still love you" I whispered.

"I love you too" she whispered back. I looked down at her and she was looking up at me.

"Go back to sleep" I said as I went to walk away

"I'm so sorry Andy" she said "I know I've fucked up, but I need you to believe me, I didn't kiss him, I swear to you"

 I closed my eyes and shook my head. I turned back around and I sat down next to her.

"I saw you with him though Kay, why can't you just stop lying to me?" I said to her