I love you NOT her (Nena )

Forgiven

Nikki's Pov

I still don't know how I feel about john . I love him but he is married and I feel like I destroyed a relationship . His wife is so pretty and he still came and loves me . We went to the arena in seperate cars and when I got their I went to brie .

"How was the date last night ", brie asked

" umm it was fun we had sex in his hotel room then he dropped a big bomb on me ", I said

" what happened ", she said

"He is married ", I said holding my head

"What!! Really ", brie said

" yea ", I said

"So are you guys still seeing each other ", brie said

"I mean yea ", I said

"What ", she said

"I know I don't know how I feel about it but he already filed a divorce and she moved out of his house this morning ", I said

"So what if he asked you to move in with him ", she said

"I'm not moving in the same house he slept with his wife in ", I said

"Do you love him ", she asked

"I feel sparks and I do love him ", I said

" ok make sure ", she said hugging me as ariane came in

"Hey guys ", she said

"Hey ", we said

"I'm going to catering ", I said walking away with brie and going to randy and john then we sat down

"Hey guys ", john said

"Hey ", I said sitting beside him but not to close

"Hey ", brie said hugging randy

" I missed you guys ", randy said hugging me

" we too ", we said

" ok ", I said

"Hey brie would you like to go on a date " , randy said

" yea sure " brie said

"Umm nicole can I talk to you " , john asked

"Yea ", I said as we went to his locker room and he locked the door

"Are you ok ", john said with his hands on my waist

"Yea are you ok ", I asked

"I am because I have a beautiful girl in my life ", he said making me smile

" yes I am ", I said as he kissed me

" I love you ", he said rubbing my butt

"I love you too ", I said as he sat down on the couch pulling me in his lap

" it feels good when your in my lap ", he said kissing me

" me too ", I said

"DiD you know that your the first woman that I dated every sat in my lap ", he said

" john your kidding seriously ", I asked

"Yes ", he said

" oh I just love looking in your eyes ". I said

" yea I hope we have kids together ", he said and I was shocked because I knew he never wanted kids

" me too ", I said

" ok lets go back to catering ", I said

" ok but first give me a long passionate french kiss ", he said

"Ok ", I said starting to kissing him then two minutes later we pulled out

"Wow ", he said giving me a peck and we went back to brie and randy

" hey we are back " , I said smiling

"Yea ", brie said giving me the tell me everything look then we went back to our locker room

" what happen when you and john went to talk ", brie asked

" he caried me in his locker room and he sat me in his lap telling me that he hopes he has kids with me . when we were coming back we were kissing for two minutes ", I said

"Woow he loves you ", brie said

"Yea I know ", I said