5SOS Child Preferences

Calls >> Ashton

his pov

"Hey, hun. It's annoying Ashton speaking again. I guess I couldn't keep you off me, that's why. My mind's just so full of you right now."

"Amanda learned how to walk today and I have never felt so proud, seeing her taking tiny step in our living room, making her way to the lawn, and then back to the living room. I held her hand throughout the time, her hands are so tiny compared to mine. She was waddling at the living room and managed to get your picture from the coffee table and she handed it to me. She said, "mama". I almost got into tears but then I couldn't cry in front of her, I need to be strong for her."

"It's really difficult to manage a career and take care of our baby all at the same time. But you know what? I can make it through because you believe I can and I love you and Mandy so much. (and of course, with the help of mum). I love you, forever and always."

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"Mandy turned 5 today. I got her a present, the giant teddy bear she always wanted me to get her. I also threw her a party, with cakes and balloons. Your family, my family, the boys, and our friends came over to celebrate with us. She's happy but she told me she wished that you'd come back and give her a hug. She's starting to ask about you. Where you are, how are you feeling, if you miss us both. Don't worry, I always tell her stories about you and I always remind her how much you love her. She asked me if she could keep a picture of you in her bedroom, I gave her the last photo I snapped from you that night we went out for our anniversary. I love you, (Y/N). We miss you."

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"It's hard to conceal my sadness especially when everything reminds me of you. By everything, I mean Amanda. She is completely like you. The way you look, the way you talk, sleep, eat, laugh, and how much you show you care about me. She's always in touch with me when I leave her at mum's place. She uses mum's phone to call me and ask if I've already eaten my dinner, sometimes she even forgets about timezones and call me at 3 in the morning. But that didn't bother me, I loved knowing that she's okay, that she's happy. I hope you're happy too, wherever you are. I love you."

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"Amanda's growing up so fast, she's already in high school. I'm so scared for her. I remember the times we struggled in school, we've been judged and misunderstood, I hope she doesn't go through that. Another thing is, she's a growing teenager. She didn't change tho, she's still my baby Mandy. She told me about this guy she likes in school. She's already in love with some monster, (Y/N). How will I even solve that?"

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"Mandy's going out for a date tonight. I can't believe I allowed her. She promised me not to do anything reckless. I remember our first date, at a local park late at night with our whipped cream and vodka. I can't believe we called that a date. That moment was the time when we felt careless and free. Up until now our parents do not know that that happened. To be honest, I don't want Amanda to do what we did. Amanda and I miss you so much."

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"Brb. Gonna beat someone up."

"He broke our daughter's precious heart. How dare he. She loved him, and I saw that. Mandy told me about the fights they had. It was heartbreaking. I remember the nights when we yell at each other for god knows what. You were mad but you'd always kiss me. You would never let me sleep until we solve our argument, I always let you win of course. But overall, I miss you and I love you so damn much even if it hurts so bad."

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"Mandy asked me to tell her all about you. From the moment we met, all our firsts, our wedding, our life together, all of it. It felt good to reminisce but it hurts at the same time, knowing that you'll never be here to make me feel whole again. She gave me a long, comforting hug after my long ass story. She told me that she thinks you're an amazing person and that if she could, she'd bring you back to life and we'll be a family. I told her that even if you're not physically here, you're always here to watch us and guide us. Right?"

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"Hey. I believe this will be the last time I'll call you. Irwin family update: Amanda has three wonderful children with her husband. They're all living happily on their own place not really far from ours. I'm old now, I guess the bald spot I denied back then is clearly visible now. I wish we could've gotten old together. We'd watch each other's hair turn gray, hold each other while walking, watch lame tv shows together, and play with our grandchildren together. I did it, (Y/N). I have raised our daughter beautifully , just like what you said. And now, we're about to see each other again. I can feel it coming anytime now, here in my hospital bed. It hurts me to leave Amanda here on this place, but I know she'll be in good hands and that she can make it. She's a strong woman, just like her mum. I love you, (Y/N). I can't wait to be with you again, my love."