5SOS Child Preferences

He Died

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Calum:

You stood there, looking over him. He's dressed in a clean black tux, his hair combed back, and his face looking so relaxed.

"I know you would've preferred wearing ripped skinny jeans, your favorite flannel, and a beanie to match it. But I can't do anything about it, they wanted you to look formal, not punk rock." You talk to him even if you know that he wouldn't respond. You forced yourself to smile a little bit but your tears get on the way and you just couldn't help but release them.

"I love you, Calum. I wish you're still here to get up and tell me you love me too. You were the only one who made me feel special and important." You sniffed and wiped your tears. "I know you don't want me like this, but I can't help it!" You ranted and continued to sob. "You know what, I changed my mind. I hate you. I hate you for leaving me all alone. You broke your promise, you promised me that you'll stay by my side forever." You shook his coffin and cried harder. Knowing that no one's around the place, you let all your feelings out.

"Mum, mum, it's okay." Christian ran up to you and rubbed your shoulders, making you stop crying. "It's hard, I know. But I'm sure dad would hate to see you like that." He held your hands and wiped off your tears. "Dad does not break his promises, I know he's going to keep his promise and watch over us every time." He pulls in and hugged you. "Stay strong. For us."

You felt relief and comfort while Christian hugged you. It almost felt like Calum's warm embrace. "God knows I'm trying." You whisper while you hold yourself from crying again.

Luke:

You held your 2-year old boy in your arms while you stood in front of Luke's grave. "It's been two years now, Luke." You started talking. "It's also Tristan's birthday party later. The boys will be over and so is your family." You glance at baby Tristan while he plays with a baby penguin that was Luke's.

Luke died while he was on the way to the hospital to be with you while you give birth to your son. His car was bumped by a huge truck and he hit his head real hard on the steering wheel. You were so happy to see your newborn baby but after a few moments, you received the devastating news about Luke.

"I wish you could be here with us. He looks so much like you. He has your eyes, nose, and hair. Even the smile you got. He even reminds me of you so much." You hold your tears back and tried to smile. "He's grown up a lot. He's tall too. I bet he's going to be a giant like you too." You bring Tristan down the ground and you look proudly as he stood up on his own. "I'll make sure he knows everything about you. His first word was 'Daddy', you know? I love you, Luke. I really love you so much."

Tristan walked around Luke's grave. And you found him standing right in front of Luke's tombstone. "Come on, Tristan. We have to prepare for your party." You extend your arm towards him. He leaned over Luke's tombstone and gave it a kiss. You let out a little laugh and walked towards him to pick him up. "Daddy.. kiss." Tristan said with a smile.

Ashton:

Dear dad,

I still remember the exact words you told us before you went off. You told us that you'll be watching us from above, follow every footstep we take, and protect us like you always have. It may sound creepy for others, but for me it is some sort of assurance within myself, knowing that there is an angel in heaven, smiling at me and supporting me in everything.

Things were never the same since you left. Every single one who loves you never had that big smile and laughter again. Maddie started singing in our school, she even got the lead role for this year's musical play. Georgia still hasn't moved on since you left. I understand how she feels, it's a lot more sad than sad. Maddie and I always end up comforting her in the middle of the night when she cries. Only if our tears can bring you back here with us. Mum is the strongest woman I have ever seen. She stays strong for us and tries to appear unbroken just to help us get back. Mum loves you so much, dad. We all do.

I won't make this letter longer, tho. I know you're more of a listener than a reader. I admit I always end up crying when I write to you. I'm sorry, but believe me I'm trying my very best not to. I hope you get my letters and patiently read them! I love you, dad and I miss you so bad. I'll try to be the best sister to my sisters, just like you are a father to us, a husband to mum, and a son to nana.

Love,
1/3 princesses, Caroline.

Michael:

Hey, dad. I never thought I'd write to someone because you know I think letters are extremely sentimental. But I was helping mum in cleaning your stuff a while ago, and I felt so much loneliness without you here with us. I have to admit, I really miss you.

I'm sorry you won't get to see our baby sister, your only daughter. The doctor's said she's growing healthy last time mum went to the doctor. Lance, Harry, and I are extremely excited for her. We can't wait to have her with us. Mum's doing fine, although she still longs for you.

It's really sad to know that we'll never be complete for family dinners, holidays, and our graduation. I hope you'll be proud of us, because that's what we want to happen. I promise you that I will take care of my siblings and mum, too. I'll protect them no matter what. I won't let you down. The three of us will be the best brothers for our baby sister. And when someone tries to hurt her, we'll beat the shit out of them.

I love you, dad. Thanks for being our dad (an awesome one).

-Marcus.