Joe and Dianne: My Suicide Saviour - Part 2

An old friend

Joe's POV:

I sat down on the comfortable sofa scrolling through my social medias. Dianne was out dancing for the first time in several months. She hadn't been out on her own properly in a very long time. I knew how important her time to herself was and dance is her one true passion in life so I was glad she was out of the house doing what she loved. Not just for herself but for my own piece of mind as well it was a good thing that we weren't under the same roof. 

As much as I love her it can always be quite taxing when you spend every waking moment with someone. Sometimes it's nice to have your own space. Having said this, I was now sitting here completely bored as I had no idea what to do. I continued to look at my phone and eventually decided to catch up on some of the videos that my mates had put up.

I hadn't looked at my own channel in almost 3 months now and I hadn't filmed a video since just before Christmas. I thought to myself that seeing as Dianne was out doing what she loved most, it's probably a good time for me to be heading back to reality and into my life as a vlogger. Whilst deciding what to film I realised I should probably settle on a life update video to explain why I had neglected my channel for about half a year.

I headed into the office and wiped the thin layer of dust that had settled on my computer screens, my cameras and my desk whilst I had neglected them. I felt bad in a way, it was like I had let my equipment down. I turned them all on and checked everything was working perfectly, before settling down on my desk chair in front of the camera.

I pressed record and let out a large breath. My hands began to shake slightly and I felt nerves. I had no idea why though because I had done this thousands of times.

"Hey guys welcome back to the channel, it's been a while hasn't It. Now I have severely neglected this channel and I can only apologise for that, but all will be explained in this video. So let's talk about all things Thatcher Joe related!" I started my intro as I always did. I tried to be a little bit quirky but kept up my energy. Instantly filming had put a smile back onto my face. This is what I was meant to be doing. How I was supposed to be.

"So a lot of you are probably wondering where I've been and what's going on with me and my channel. Basically I've been away becau..." I was interrupted by a knock at the door. I stopped the recording and sighed feeling slightly irritated that I'd been interrupted. Dianne had probably just forgotten her keys.

 I opened the door to find a girl standing at my door.

She was roughly my height, had dark brown hair that was perfectly placed in beautiful waves that cascaded off of her delicate shoulders. Her eyes were an emerald green and shone out like the gems they were. 

"Evie, what are you doing here?" I questioned timidly. She was the last person I expected to see behind that door. Evie was the last person I dated before I met Dianne. She was my girlfriend when I was diagnosed with cancer. She was the one who broke my heart and told me that I was 'contaminated'. Evie was the reason I almost jumped. The reason I started to cut myself. The reason I went from the happy joker I used to be to the depressed piece of shit I am now.

"Hey Joe, do you mind if I come in?" She asked politely. She seemed different at first but I was still weary of why she was here.

"Um, yeah sure come on through." I said quietly. She walked into the kitchen and sat down at the bar stool. I walked round to the other side of the kitchen island and looked her in the eyes. She looked back up towards mine and gave me her gorgeous smile. I knew that I was with Dianne but as I looked into my ex's eyes I remembered how fit she was.  

"So Evie. Let me ask you this. 1 year ago you broke up with me - stole the engagement ring I was planing to give you - cheated on me - and now suddenly you've arrived at my door with no explanation. Why?"

"Well straight to the point then Joe. You haven't changed a bit have you."

"I think you'll find a lot of things in my life have changed since you left me." I snapped back to her. There was still resentment between us but mostly on my behalf.

She took in a deep breath and then slowly let the air out of her lungs as she began to spoke. "Listen Joe I've been thinking about this a lot recently, but since I saw you on TV late last year, I can't help but think that I didn't give you a chance. Maybe I made a huge mistake letting you go. In all honestly you were such a huge part of my life and I thought that it was insane that you didn't know who I was right now. I didn't have your number so I came round to ask if you were free tomorrow to have a catch up." I listened to her words carefully. She did seem changed from when I last saw her. Maybe she just wanted to have a friendly conversation. I gave her the benefit of the doubt.

"Yeah i'm around tomorrow afternoon."

"Okay fantastic!" She said seeming surprised at my answer, "Why don't we meet on the bridge of St James' park at around 3 o'clock tomorrow then."

"Yeah I'll be there."

She stood up off of the bar stool and quickly walked around to me. Her small leather purse hanging off her arm as she moved towards me. She kissed me gently on the cheek and gave me a small hug.

"This is gonna be great Joe, I cant wait!" She said like an excited child. She pulled out a small business card from her bag and passed it over to me. "That's my number in case you need me before tomorrow. Or after. Who knows." As she said this she kissed me on the cheek again holding her soft lips there for longer this time. She walked away from me and gave me a wink as she headed out of the door.

I was slightly confused by the situation. It was so random. So weird.

What had I done?