Safe Yet Sorry//Brendon Urie

Chapter 15

     As soon as we got off of Instagram, I started to do my makeup with my Airpods in. While doing my makeup Brendon came into the bunk and started to talk to me, little did he know I had my headphones in so he couldn't be heard. He then noticed after a five-minute conversation with himself that I had them in, he got upset and left my bunk. Don't get me wrong, I felt bad but he hurt me. How does he think I am just gonna let him talk to me after kissing me and telling me he loved me, then finding out he has a fiance?

     Frank and Eva were always supportive of me, meaning they were going to leave the tour too. I would love for them to come home with me, but I told them to stay and do the rest of the tour with Bredon. The fans were already disappointed and I didn't want to make it seem like I was making them stop touring. After I finished my makeup Maddy and I had tweeted for some song suggestions for my performance. Lots of people were saying for me to do Brendon's songs, but I didn't know if I really should.

     Finally, ten minutes before I had to go on I figured out what songs and such that I would be doing. Frank and Eva were first up, Brendon was second, and I was the last one. While they performed Pete and I made an agreement that if I started to get flustered that he would come up and help me out up there. I knew that he was gonna have to help me, I could barely keep it together. Even though Pete and I didn't really know each other he still helped me through all this shit.

     As soon as I heard Brendon's set end I knew it was my turn to go up and perform, but then he started to speak, "Hey before I go off stage, I just wanted to say that my amazing fiance is here today and I couldn't have done this without her, I love you, Sarah," That was when brendon walked off of stage and hugged a girl who I didn't know. Then I figured it out, Sarah.

As soon as brendon walked off of stage I walked on. Everyone was screaming until i started to speak, that's when they went silent. "Hey yall! Hows everyone's night going?" I smiled as I heard the crowds screams, "I'm guessing y'all are having a lot of fun out here!" More screams came from the crowd, "okay! So you guys have requested a lot of songs. So the first song I'm gonna do, got more requests than others. Here is Lips of an Angel by Hinder. I hope you guys like it" I grabbed the guitar and started to strum. "Honey, why are you calling me so late? It's kinda hard to talk right now. Honey, why are you crying, is everything okay? i gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud. Well, my girl's in the next room. Sometimes I wish she was you. I guess we never really moved on. It's really good to hear your voice saying my name. It sounds so sweet. Coming from the lips of an angel. Hearing those words - it makes me weak. And I never wanna say goodbye. But, girl, you make it hard to be faithful. With the lips of an ang-" before I could finish the words I started to choke up and cry. As he promised, Pete came onto the stage and put my guitar on the ground before hugging me tighter than anyone ever had in my life.

"Thank you guys for being patient." Pete was speaking into the microphone. "Give it up for Kiana, guys!" Everyone in the crowd screamed louder than before. Then everyone but Brendon and Sarah came onto stage and started hugging me. "Kiana is one of the strongest girls I know. She was so brave to come out here tonight. I want you all to cherish this moment." Pete smiled and kissed my head making the crowd scream again, "I have only known Kiana for a day or two but she is the nicest and most welcoming person I've ever met. I'm glad that I've finally met her." Pete kept side hugging me as I cried into his chest.

Why did I even do the shows? I should have just said no and left. Frank then grabbed all of us microphones and handed them out.

"You guys are so loud out here!" Grayson spoke into his mic

"I agree" Tyler said looking at Josh

"I have an announcement by the way" Dallon came onto stage and hugged me and Pete. "If you ever get a chance to meet this beautiful girl right here, take it!" He rubbed my back, "She and i have known each other for a long time, I knew her brother. I never thought she would be such an amazing person like she is so I never spoke to her until she was live with Brendon. Then I met her and spoke to her for hours on end and holy shit do i love this girl already!" I looked up at him with my bloodshot eyes and smiled.

"I have to say this, all of you who are disappointed because we aren't going to be on tour after the next four shows I'm sorry. But all of us on stage besides Frank and Eva are going home and helping Kiana heal from what's going on. You guys will get an explanation soon but until then you will have to trust us. This is what needs to be done." Maddy spoke and I honestly smiled wide. She made this so much easier.

"Also, I will be taking a break from Panic! and joining Kiana at home as well" Dallon spoke and I looked up at him confused. "Friends stick together and I couldn't let everyone else take care of her and not help." I hugged Dallon and then smiled wiping all my tears away. "Let's sing shall we?" Dallon handed me my mic and I nodded.

"Lets skip that one and sing one I wrote shall we? This is called touch!" The song started to play on the speakers, "you and I and nobody else. Feel the feelings I've never felt. The way you've got me under your spell. Don't you keep it all to yourself!" Dallon and Pete joined in "so won't you take it, I feel it for the first time I am not faking. Fingers on my buttons and now you're playing. Master of anticipation don't you keep it all to yourself!" I smiled and me and Maddy did our dance routine "just a touch of your love is enough to knock you off of my feet all week. Just a touch of your love. Just a touch of your love. Just a touch of your love is enough to take control of your whole body just a touch of you love. Just a touch of your love." That was when the speakers took over and all of us were jamming out and jumping up and down on stage. Everyone in the audience were jumping too, yelling the lyrics. Then we sang again, "photograph with no T-shirt on. Why you making me wait so long. I promise to keep this a secret I'll never tell. But don't you keep it all to yourself. Won't you take it. I feel it for the first time I am not faking. Fingers on my buttons and now you're playing. Master of anticipation don't you keep it all to yourself!" The speakers took control of the rest again.

After the show I went out and signed everyone's things and took pictures. I was actually happy. One girl asked to take a picture with me and Pete and when we did. She squealed and ran back to her mom. That was something that made me night better than any other. After Pete and I took pictures and stuff we went back to my bunk and talked for hours. Then we fell asleep laying on the bed.