Montemaria
Chase's POV
"C-Chase... Bibisita ka??" Tanong ni papa saakin pero hindi ko s'ya hinarap, nagpatuloy lang ako sa pagtingin sa singsing na dapat ibibigay ko sa kanya sa araw ng kasalan namin...
"Chase?" Tawag n'ya muli pero para bang wala na kong gana sa lahat... Pangatlong araw nang mawala s'ya sa aking bisig... Ang hirap lang tanggapin... Ito na ba yung kapalit ng sobrang kasiyahan na naranasan ko?
Mali pala talaga na magpakasaya ka ng sobra kase yung sayang yon kaya pading palitan ng sobrang kalungkutan...
"Son... Please don't be like this... At least eat! It's been 3 days-
"Kung kakain ba ko mabubuhay s'ya, pa?" Putol ko sa sasabihin n'ya nang hindi s'ya tinitignan at wala akong narinig ng kahit ano mula sa kanya kaya sumandal ako sa sofa at napapikit ng mariin.
Ano na kaya mangyayari sakin? Kakayanin koba? Ayaw n'ya namang sumunod ako... Coz' I made... A promise... Pag ba naiisip kong sumunod sa kanya feeling ko hindi n'ya na ko mamahalin dahil sa ilalabag ko yung death wish n'ya. Tang ina. Bat ba ganito nangyari?
"Dada?" Tumigil ako sa pagsabunot sa aking buhok at nilingon si Aerody. "Dada... Can you join me... Eat my nomnom?" Yaya nito at nakita ko sa likod n'ya si Anastasia... Anastasia? S-She's alive? Fuck... I forgot...
"Anastasia...." I mumbled and she grins at me and ran at me with those snacks he have. "Kuya! Mama would be angry if you won't eat!" She scold kaya nawala yung ngiti ko.
B-Buhay din si mama?!
I suddenly stood up at biglang pumasok si papa. "Where's mom?" tanong ko kay papa at sinulyapan n'ya sila aerody. "Aerody... Why don't you take your twin out for a while?" Sabi nito at kaya niyaya na ni Aerody si Anastasia palabas.
"Where is she?" I asked calmly and I sat back the sofa. "I already told you everything yesterday... Did you forgot?" Dad said from my back but I shook my head no.
"I... Ugh... I think my head is not yet stable to understand things... Sorry..." I hold my head and sigh. "It's alright... I understand... You can ask me anything that you want to know... And I promise to come clean on you..." He said but I just clench my hair again.
Napuno ng katahimikan ang silid pero alam kong nasa likod padin si papa sa likuran ko. "Pa?" I called and looked at him.
Para bang naalerto s'ya kaya lumakad paharap ko "Why?"
"I wanna know... Where's mom?" I stammered so he sat across me. Based on his actions... It looks like... Mom really did not make it...
"I-I'm sorry... But... She's with God... A-As long as I want her to stay..." He paused and shrug his shoulders at me and chuckle. "But maybe God had a better plans for her." It was clearly obvious that he forced himself to speak out.
"How does it feels like?"
"Feel what?"
"Living without the most important person in your life? D-Did you also have the thought of going with her also?"
He gave me a sad smile and he sighs. "It's really hard son... I really love your mother... And it took me 3 years to accept that she's really... With God... And yes, I always have that thought but then I also have the thought na kung susunod ba ko sa mama mo mapapatawad moko sa nagawa ko? I can't bury with that lies, I want to fix those and I know my kids still need me so I can't go with her yet." He said at napangisi ako.
