dear bear | kth

13장

dear bear,

there are times when the friends you thought you were friends with leave you.

it leaves you mad, sad, and bittersweet all in one.

you feel mad when people confront you about it- all you can shout back is, "i'm not that type of person they describe me as."you feel angered at the fact that your friends could just throw you under the bus in one swift motion without any remorse.

you feel sad that you lost a friend over what they heard others say about you. you wonder, "were we even friends to begin with?" because "why do they seem to not understand what i truly think i am."

you feel bittersweet knowing that the months or years of friendship that the two of you built up just crumbled like a pile of a leaves and wind combined. all those pictures- the memories- they start to sink in one by one as you recount your times together.

that person once meant a lot to you.

as you are thinking, you soon realize that maybe you really are bad. maybe you really were the issue. but i don't everyone should say that they were the issue 24/7 because everyone has faults in a fight.

you can't pile leaves up with no help. the two of you pile up the leaves one by one together. it's something small like the wind that easily knocks down the fragile structure.

we all are/were the issue and the reason why the friendship fell apart. maybe this is another unknown road leading you to a path of self realization/something better.

you really shouldn't hate that person.

instead you should thank them for helping you realize yourself as well as a road to a better self.

love,
kim taehyung