dear bear | kth

10장

dear bear,

it's been six months since you turned 10.

everyday has been eventful in its own way.

jiwoo became your step mother a few years ago.

she just slowly eased into our life and it's been an amazing ride.

in the beginning, i was hesitating on whether or not i was making the right decision.

it took time, but i decided that i couldn't continue to drown in water till death.

so i broke out and worked hard towards what my heart desired; jiwoo.

although our house is filled with laughter and happiness, there are times of uneasiness. it creeps around the corner, sinking us into the depths of despair.

'was this the right thing to do?'

'was it right of me to bring jiwoo into my messy life?'

'how does bear truly feel about all of this?'

the answer to those questions remain unanswered.

yet through the uneasiness there are times where i feel as if everything i did is right.

but who knows what is truly right?

time will tell.

it's okay to have questions that crowd your mind. it's okay to feel uncertain. that's something that is a part of every human being.

although uneasiness creeps in, you should never allow it to swallow you up or else you'll come back to square one.

you have to have a healthy balance between the two.

yes, uneasiness seems like something terrible, but it's only something that's a part of us. we just have to learn to push through.

you can feel uneasy. just remember that if you embrace the present and continue living on, you'll end up finding the answer somewhere along the way.

love,
kim taehyung