dear bear | kth

21장

dear bear,

even though a couple months have passed since you first entered middle school- it seems as if you've been having a lot of trouble with making friends. it's okay. that was me too.

there are times where i just wanted to be left alone and i thought, "i don't need friends, friends fall apart anyway, i just need to take care of myself." i came to regret those words when i stumbled upon hardships. i realized that just having one friend you trust made such a large difference in your life.

it's just the act of having someone to talk to and someone that you trust enough to open your heart.

but my old feelings and scars from being hurt by so many friend groups in the past made me reluctant to make new friends. i would act like social butterfly and just go from group to group. but at the end of the day, i had no actual set friend group i could lean too. i always found that to be upsetting.

sometimes i wonder why it's so hard to make friends and also keep them for a long time. i feel as if there are times where it is incredibly easy to make a large group of friends. but the easier it is to make friend, the harder it is to keep them. while the harder it is to make friends, the easier it is to keep them.

i guess it depends on how long you observe that person and their personality. i think that matters a lot, you want to make sure that you match with that person. having too much of a similar personality with one another will just cause you to bump heads along the road.

you know, i don't think it's that we are bad at making friends. i think it's because we are just waiting for the right people to show up and match with us. i think it's better to wait for a person like that and go through each person one by one with a lot of detail.

then, you'll eventually come across the right friends for you that you can maintain for a long time. just remember that communication is key. but that's another story for another time. i think it'll be interesting to see what i'll write for you when you enter high school and college.

but that's a long time from now. until then,

love,
kim taehyung