Unexpected Love

Chapter 6

Landon continues to talk to me about the same story but with a few different details it sounds like. I poke at my food and hate that fact I can't stop thinking about Josh with all those girls around him. Why? Oh God, Why? Landon notices my odd behavior and asks "You okay." "Yeah, I'm fine... I'm just thinking about a paper that I have to write and it's not done yet" I lie. "Well...we can finish early so you can get your homework done" he replies. Without thinking I jump at the opportunity and say okay. He asks for the check. Why? Oh God, why am I thinking it is okay to ditch Landon? Josh is probably hanging with several different girls right now. Landon walks me back to my dorm and kisses me on the cheek. I apologize for the early ending and say let's do it again soon. He smiles and heads back to his car.

As soon I get back to my room, I call Josh. He doesn't answer. I send a text and he doesn't answer. What am I doing? I fall face forward on my bed and yell into. Why did I think was okay? I say. I close my eyes and reopen them a few minutes later when I hear my phone ringing. "How was your date with him?" Josh says. "What?" I reply. "I know you blew me off for him?" he says. I have no words to say to him except "sorry," but part of me likes that I made him irritated. He starts laughing in the receiver "Sorry, I'm busy right now too." "Fine, Josh you win. You were right I should have gone with you" I shout. Josh immediately goes silent and says "I'll be there in 10 minutes." He hangs up and I'm already smothered with confusion. Was that an insult? Was he pissed? Holy shit college boys are so confusing? I'm just stupid.

Josh is at my door quicker than I think he would be. I do a quick run through of my hair and makeup down previously done up for Landon. I change shirts from the stylish one I previously had on to something more comfortable similar to the Henley quarter length tee shirt he first saw me in. Josh beams as I open the door and I show my excitement right away. "You look beautiful" he says. I squeak "Thanks."

He takes my hand in his and pulls me to the passenger side door of his car. I can't help but stare at his sexy car. As he climbs in the car next to me I blurt "What are we going to do Josh?" He smirks at me and says "I have some ideas." We drive to a nearby park and park in a deserted parking lot. We both climb out of his car and head for what looks like a huge playground. His hand is around my waist while his hand is gripped around a small bag. I can't seem to help but smile. Hopefully he doesn't notice.

We take seats on the swings so our bodies face each other rather than face in the same direction side by side. He drops the bag and pulls out two glasses and pushes them in my direction to hold. He then pulls out a bottle of what looks like wine, but he laughs as he sees my expression "Don't worry, I'm not here to get you drunk. It's sparkling cider." "Are we celebrating something" I mutter. He pops open the bottle and pours liquid in each glass then drops the bottle back in the bag.

"So are you going to answer any of those same annoying questions you asked me" he says. I look away with confusion. He places his hand on my thigh and says "I'll answer more questions first if you want." I shake my head and say "No, it's all good." I begin to tell me about me, my likes and dislikes, how I'm trying to decide to go into business or nursing, how I'm trying to let go of my music dreams, how I write in my spare time, and all the other things I want to do. I suddenly feel at ease, yet weird at the same time considering how easy it is to open up to him. He reciprocates with more answers about how he's not sure what he wants to do and needs to choose a major soon. He talks about how he's from Wyoming (which I never would have guessed) and how he grew up on a dairy farm, riding motorbikes, and doing dangerous, daredevil shit.

I seriously feel so inadequate around him. He seems to live life so passionately, without fear and with so much excitement. Living life without care and at ease, I'm truly jealous. I haven't done much in my life...all I could think was wanting to change my life and start living it to the fullest especially after hearing what he had to say. Josh notices my expression right away. "What are you thinking about" he says. "Nothing" I cowardly say. He sets his glass down and I follow his lead. He then pulls the chain of my swing closer to his closing the gap between us. I support his motion and grip my hand on his swing chain as well. He looks at me with such intensity and I suddenly feel the same electricity flow through as he begins to rub his thumb against my jaw line. The breeze blows a few strands of my hair in my face and he quickly tucks them behind my ear.

"You should come to my parents place in Wyoming" he blurts. "It's only two hours away from here... James and Jess could come with us for a fun weekend." I'm flabbergasted at his idea and that he would even invite me so soon but how could I decline this sexy guy's request. "Yeah, let's do it" I burst. I notice he licks his bottom lip after seeing my excitement. My body becomes ridged after feeling a bolt of lightning hit my chest. He places his hand on my cheek and my face turns into it. He scoots over and places a soft kiss on my lips. Without thinking I kiss back, but this time is wasn't so full of lust or need but simple and romantic.

Yet, our lips begin to part and his tongue begins to slide against the bottom of my lip. I giggle and pull away knowing that this could lead to more in a heartbeat. He lets go of my swing and I almost whimper at the loss his close contact. He picks up the glasses, dumps the remaining liquid on the ground and throws them back in the bag. He stands up and extends his hand towards mine. We walk back to the car, his around my waist. We both didn't realize how late it was until we reached the car and pull out our cell phones out. He starts his the engine of his hot mustang and places his hand on my thigh "I had a really good time tonight. I hope you did too." I smile in his direction and scoot closer to him in the car. If I were any closer I would break the console between us and sit in his lap. "Yes, I had a great time" I reply. "So should the four of us count on going my place next weekend?" he asks. "Yes...But let's chat with Jess and James about it on Tuesday in class."

We arrive at my dorm and I can tell everyone is asleep. The windows are pitch black and all we can hear are faint noises from multiple TVs in other dorm rooms. Before I can open the door, he hits the locks again. I turn around "Are you seriously locking me in your car again?" I firmly ask. "I just wanted a few more minutes with you" he says sweetly. How does he do it? Why is he so...ugh... have this effect on me? Before I know it, he's pulling me into his lap and I'm straddling him, nibbling on his bottom lip while he grabs a fist full of my hair pulling me closer. Electricity is flowing through us and we both can't seem to stop. I begin to roll my hips and I get my first moan from him which startles both of us, but he continues to kiss me moving to my neck and downward, while placing his one hand on my neck and the other on my back. Without knowing, I also begin to whimper, but realize shortly after what I'm doing I shoot my eyes open and push away from him. He's much stronger than me and doesn't loosen his grip that has now fallen to my hips.

"What" he says. "Nothing, but we need to stop. I need to go before-"I reply. Before I can finish Josh is kissing me hard and our tongues are intertwined again. His hand is back in my hair twirling locks and pulling fistful. "God, baby this feels so good...I could make you feel so good!" he whispers in between our kisses. This is the same damn line he said to me before? How many other girls has he said this too?

I pull away hard this time and I'm able to climb out of his lap. I pull the lock out and start walking away. He's shocked at first, but catches up with me and pulls my wrist. "Slow down girl, why are rushing to get away from me?" I try to release his grip on my wrist, but he tightens it and pulls me into his chest. I don't know why but tears start pooling into the bottom of my eyes. He notices that I'm starting to get upset. "Josh, I won't be another conquest of yours, be another flavor of the week, or be that new freshmen girl you claim for a night." He looks down at me with concern and rungs his fingers through my hair. "You're not another girl. This time.....this time it's different for me... It will be different this time. I can already feel it! Monday will come and it won't change how I feel about you" he says. I try to pull away from him again, but he pulls me closer. Being more than 6 feet tall he bends down and places a kiss on my head. "Josh, I need to go" I whisper.

He can see the strain in my eyes and almost knows I'm hurting. He releases me and I walk away without glancing over. I close the front door behind me and hear Josh drive away. Thank goodness I have tomorrow to recuperate. I climb into my bed without washing my face or brushing my teeth. I know I'll regret that tomorrow morning but right now I don't care. I close my eyes and pass out thinking yet again how stupid I am.