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Namjoon decided to make his way to dance studio that night. Yoongi had been shooting for his mixtape's music video and the male was most probably be going to go back to the dorm after the tiring day. Not wanting to work on music alone the leader decided to go and practice the new choreography since it was a night he expected nobody to be there.
Namjoon pushed the door open and was taken aback when he heard the unfamiliar song playing. The older had thought that nobody was in the practice room since the members had decided to have a movie night and that the trainees had a different practice room.
He walked inside and saw Hoseok practising what he guessed was his solo song's choreography. The older had not seemed to notice the younger's presence and continued to practice with the song on repeat without break. The leader was impressed by the song, the lyrics the older had written. He watched in awe as he watched him dance, he wondered how his leg could easily go that up each time.
Namjoon was concerned that the older was not taking any breaks and when the song repeated for the fifth time, he got up to stop his fellow 94-liner but the older had seemed to fall as his legs gave out due to tiredness.
A groan escaped Hoseok's lips as his knees touched the ground, as he felt the pain his body was experiencing. He flinched when he felt someone sit beside him. "What are you doing here Namjoon-ah? Wasn't today the movie night?" He asked the leader, hissing in pain at the end.
"I could ask you the same, Hobie. Anyways, lay down on the couch, I'll get an ice pack," Namjoon said as he helped Hoseok to walk to the couch.
Namjoon rushed to the fridge that was in the room and grabbed two ice packs and went to Hoseok. It was good that the older was wearing shorts or else his knee part of trousers/jeans would have gotten wet due to the melting of ice. Namjoon gently placed the ice packs on the older's knees causing him to wince in pain.
"Namjoon-ah, you don't have to do this."
"I want to."
Namjoon went to grab a fan when he noticed that Hoseok was sweating a lot. He turned the fan on and gave it to the dancer who sighed in relief as he felt the cool air. "Thank you Namjoon-ah." "No problem Hoseok," he smiled as took the ice pack and gently pressed it on the older's knee.
"Hobi, you shouldn't overwork yourself."
"I'm not, I'm fine."
Namjoon just gives Hoseok a pointed look and gently presses his finger on his knee causing the older to hiss in pain. "Totally fine," he said sarcastically.
"Okay fine, maybe I should've taken a break in the middle but I don't have much time before I have to go to shoot the intro video," Hoseok said as he looked at the floor.
"But Seok-ah, the choreography is perfect, you don't have to practice this much, maybe only 3 to 5 Times a day with of course breaks in between. The choreography is powerful you will keep hurting yourself if you don't take your health into consideration," Namjoon said as he patted the dancer's shoulder causing him to whimper.
Namjoon's eyes widened as he apologised, "Sorry Hobi, I'll massage your shoulders hopefully it would lessen the pain." He positioned himself behind Hoseok and massages the older's shoulders, the dance leader groans in pain and relief. Pathetic, you can not do anything except bring pain to others, why don't you go and kill yourself that way you will make everybody's lives better, the voice whispered. Namjoon squeezed his eyes shut at the awful yet truthful words, he brought back to the world when Hoseok started talking.
"Namjoon-ah, you don't have to do this," he groans with his eyes shut in pleasure as his sore muscles felt relieved.
"If I'm hurting you then I can stop."
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Voices // Namjoon x BTS
FanfictionIn which members are oblivious to the fact that Namjoon is dying inside a little more each day. Started: 19/12/18 Ended: ? Trigger warning: self-harm self-hate mentions of suicide insomnia eating disorder little cursing