Voices // Namjoon x BTS

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Namjoon looked outside the window, watching the world go by in a flash. He could hear the members bickering, laughing as they wait to arrive at the company.

Namjoon leaned his head against the window, silent. The voice is his head suggesting the things he could do tomorrow, his birthday.

'Every year you take gifts from others, why don't you give them a present this year?'

Namjoon frowned not understanding what the voice meant.

'Why don't you kill yourself tomorrow, a gift for everybody around you. There will no longer be a nuisance in the group, untalented piece of shit.'

Namjoon thought about it for a little. To him it did not seem a bad idea. He seemed to be getting worse these days and not seem to have any control. He felt nothing but useless. He did not understand how he seemed to give others advices but can not seem to follow them himself, a hypocrite. Even thinking of loving himself made him want laugh. Love somebody like him was the best joke he had heard.

He almost agreed with the voice's suggestion.

"Hyung, we are here, let's go."

He heard the maknae's voice. His eyes full of life which still held childlike glint. Then younger's tearful face flashed before his eyes reminding him of his promise.

He shook his head. He could not break his promise.

The younger grabbed the leader's arm and pulled him out the seat when he made no movement.

"Aish, hyung you are so slow. Feels like age is getting to everybody here. Jeez I need to take care of everybody here."

Namjoon smiled. He smacks the back the younger's before lightly grabbing his ear.

"I'm your hyung, respect me or else I will kick your ass."

In response the maknae gave a cheeky smile. Leaving when the other members call out to them to come out.

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Namjoon heard knocking on the door. He got up from his bed, putting his book aside.

He opened the door only to hear loud birthday greetings.

"Happy birthday to you!"

Namjoon was shocked. He thought the others forgot about it, he was not someone important whose birthday should be remembered.

Jimin held the Ryan cake while Hoseok filmed his reaction. Others all standing behind singing the birthday.

A big genuine dimpled smile appeared on his face.

"Ryan cake!"

"I knew he would like it," Jimin said with a smug grin.

Taehyung hand leader the knife to cut the cake with.

"Make a wish," the maknae called out.

Namjoon closed his eyes and wished that he hopes he is always with his members and wished for their happiness.

Everybody clapped when the leader cut the cake.

Seokjin came behind the younger and smacked the younger's back 23 times each one for each year.

Namjoon groan in pain. He was about to say something when his phone rang.

'Abeoji'

The caller id read.

He answered the call. His parents and younger sister wished him birthday and wished him the best for his upcoming comeback. After a few mins they hang up.

A few notifications from Twitter appeared on his lock screen. A sigh escaped his parted lips knowing that the members must have posted embarrassing pictures of him.

He groaned when he saw a old selfie of his, regretting taking selfie from Yoongi's phone in first place.

"Hyung~" Namjoon whined causing Yoongi to laugh.

"Teaches you the lesson of never taking a selfie from phone ever again."

Next he opened the next post.

His cheeks flushed red while his eyes widen in shock.

"I guess he saw the picture." The maknae laughed when he looked at the leader's bewildered expression.

"Who posted this!" Namjoon screeched.

"I knew you would like it," Seokjin laughed his infamous windshield wiper laugh. Which was followed by the whole group laughing while Namjoon blushed even harder.

"Hyung you look very sexy in it," Taehyung snickered.

"Namjoon-ah, will you go out with me? You look irresistible in the picture," Hoseok teased.

"Stop before Namjoon dies from embarrassment. Come on everybody let's go to kitchen and eat the cake and have a few drinks there," Seokjin announced and left to kitchen.

Everybody followed shortly after the eldest, Namjoon looked at their backs with a wide smile gracing his plump lips.

But before Namjoon could leave his room, Taehyung came running back into the room with a sleeping mask.

Namjoon was dumbfounded when the younger put the sleeping mask of him.

"Taehyung-ah, What are you doing?"

"Just walk hyung." The singer laughed.

As Namjoon entered the kitchen he heard a familiar song. The blindfold was removed from his eyes and a laptop came in his vision. Which played his predebut song 'school of tears.'

Everybody laughed when Namjoon hid his face behind his hands. He peeked between his finger to see Hoseok filming his reaction. Everybody had bright smiles decorated on their faces causing a smile to appear on his face too.

I guess You can be unhappy but still feel happy when with others.

-A/N-

^^^ this is the pic, I wonder who posted that 😂😂

Fun fact, I wrote this chapter few days after my birthday cause I really wanted to write a birthday before shit starts to go down :)

Also, the album!!!! I love the song, Boy With Luv it's sooo good!!! 

My fav is Dionysus, what's yours?

Also, I will update again in a few days probably tom if I'm not that busy