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"You fuckers sit your ass down and eat like fucking humans," Seokjin scolded the two youngest members who had been challenging each other to catch food in their mouths while the other threw, taking turns.
They pouted but obeyed, Yoongi sighs in relief now that the noise had went down.
Jimin watched the leader who had just come sit and put a egg in his plate, he looked awful. There were dark circles around his eyes and his hair was a mess.
"Hyung, not to be offensive but you look like a mess. Are you okay? We were told that you had come early last night, is everything alright?" The maknae voices everybody's question.
Namjoon raised his head and gave a tired smile, "Everything is alright, Kook. No need to worry, hyung is fine. I was feeling sick so that's why I came early but now I'm fine." He answered, reassuring the younger the he was alright but why did it sound like it was not the others he was trying to convince but himself?
Seokjin gave a side look to Yoongi who was already looking at the older, they clearly knew that the younger was lying while Jimin just look worriedly at the leader, what had really happened last night? Was the only question that he had in his head. The leader had been fine yesterday, well except the fact that he had caught the leader puking, had he been really sick?
Hoseok who was sitting next to Namjoon put his hand on the younger's forehead to check the temperature. "It's good that you don't have fever," Hoseok said in relief.
Namjoon nodded, "Yeah, I took medicines at night so I'm as good as new."
"If you need something you can tell me, okay?" Taehyung said, his eyes showed how worried he was.
You are just a burden to them.
A fucking useless piece of shit.
They are so much better without you, the least you can do is not be a fatass.
The voice sneered, chuckling.
Namjoon turned to face Taehyung and smiled, "Of course."
After few minutes, Namjoon excused himself to restroom, Jimin's eyes following him.
"He doesn't look good," Seokjin said when Namjoon left, the others nod in agreement.
Jimin stood up and announced that he was done eating, desperate to follow behind Namjoon.
"You haven't finished your food yet," Taehyung said.
"No no I'm done, I'm full, not hungry anymore," Jimin said hurriedly as he fled from the table and ran towards the bathroom.
"That was weird," the maknae commented, looking at Jimin's retreating back as he sipped his banana milk.
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Jimin placed his ear on the bathroom's door, he hoped that Namjoon was not actually shitting or else he would be disgusted the entire day.
Soon enough Jimin heard the sound of gagging, indicating that Namjoon was vomiting. He heard him puke for minutes before he heard the sound flushing and faucet running.
He stood straight, removing his ear from the door knowing that Namjoon would be out any minute.
Patiently, he waited for the leader to get out. When Namjoon was out, he was shocked to see the younger outside, he was afraid that the singer had heard him.
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Voices // Namjoon x BTS
FanfictionIn which members are oblivious to the fact that Namjoon is dying inside a little more each day. Started: 19/12/18 Ended: ? Trigger warning: self-harm self-hate mentions of suicide insomnia eating disorder little cursing