The Reunion: Keith x Male!Reader

Chapter 5: Break the soul

~(Y/N)'s POV~

"Why are they here?!" The Altean women, who I assumed was princess Allura, yelled at the three who had lead us inside. Something about her made me uneasy, so I hid behind Kiren, trying to avoid her wrath. Keith had moved closer to me. "Allura calm down." He said, "We found them at the Space Mall. They're heading towards the blade of Marmora as well, and wouldn't it be better if we have actually members when we get there?"  Allura glared at me as I shrunk back, a small shriek escaping me, "Where did all that confidence you had before go? And I believe we agreed you would not come back here." I looked to the side, "I-I'm sorry.... but I don't remember any of you.... nor any deals I made with you all." Kiren stepped in between me and the princess, "Allura. A lot has happened to him after he left you all."

The green paladin stepped forward, "What do you mean?" Kiren sighed, taking my hand in order to try and calm me down, "We'll explain... and I have a theory. Coran... is there somewhere more comfortable we could all talk? It's a lot of information." Allura opened her mouth to speak, but the older Altean beat her to it. "Of course! Follow me." We followed him, the paladins, and even Allura, behind us. Kiren held my hand the entire way, it was comforting, it made me feel safe. However, I noticed Keith glances and glares at our hands. It made me wonder just how close the two of us had really been. It wasn't long before we all were in a living room type area. The Paladins sitting down on one half of the couch, Allura sitting as far from us as possible, Coran beside her. I sat in between the pale Altean and red paladin, as Kiren began to explain what had happened.

"From what I can gather from what I heard from you all, (N/N) and over the Galra communications. Not long after (Y/N) left you, or more accurately, after you kicked him out Allura. He crashed on to a planet called 'Avalor'. Then... Commander Uriel found him, captured him and tortured him for an unknown amount of time." There were some gasps. I looked around, the blue paladin looked both sad and angered, the green and yellow looked as though they may cry. The black looked as though he was ready to kill, Coran looked shocked, Allura looked conflicted. Then I felt a hand grab mine. My head instantly turned to the red paladin beside me. His head was down, eyes covered by his raven hair. His free hand clenched, so hard I was scared he'd break the skin, trembling. Something pulled at my heart seeing him like this and without think, I intertwined my fingers with his and lightly squeezed his hand. Keith looked up at me with glossy blue-grey eyes, I smiled reassuringly. Trying to show him that I was okay, That he had nothing to worry about right now. 

This seemed to calm him down, even if only a little. "Y-You said you had a theory... What were you talking about?" The green paladin asked, wiping their eyes on the sleeve of her shirt. Kiren's eye turned away from me and looked at the green paladin. "Right... I have a theory about how (Y/N) lost his memories, and if I'm right... there may be a way to get his them back." I perked up, "What? Why didn't you tell me?!" The older boy put his hands up in front of him, "I only thought of it when I ran into Hunk, the yellow paladin, at the space mall. I didn't have time to." I huffed, sinking into the couch, "Could have told me on the way here..." The paladins either laughed, or smiled at my childish actions. Kiren sighed, rubbing the back of his neck, "Anyway... I think Kage may have sealed them away. In order to protect the Blade, the Earth and.... all of you." 

"How would erasing his memories help with that?" The blue one asked. I thought for a moment, my eyes going wide. "Et Conteram Meam... Oh gods..." They all looked at me, curiosity and concern present. The black paladin lent over Keith placing a hand on my arm, "(Y/N), what does that mean?" I looked at the roof, "Ruffly it means, 'break the soul'. It's one of my Father... Uriel's favourite techniques to break new subjects. He uses druid magic to draw out you're deepest fears, regrets, everything that you dread and brings it to life with illusions. You hear voices, see thing... some times even.... feel things. It's designed to break a persons will so that they won't oppose him." I brought mt knees to my chest, "After a while, I had become use to it. It kept showing me the same thing so after awhile... I became numb. I seemed fine to most at a glance... but it worked. I was his pawn for a while. The blade saved me from that, helped me build up walls in order to stop it's effects... He must have been using the experiences I had from the years I don't remember."

Kiren placed a hand on his shoulder, "By erasing the source, Kage was making it so those memories could not be used against him. He was preventing (Y/N) from becoming a tool for the empire, from telling the Galra about the Blade, and stop them from using (Y/N) or Kage against those trying to fight against Zarkon. It was Kage's way of protecting all of us from the dangers of (Y/N) memories falling into Galra hands--" I stood up, not wanting to hear anymore, "They were my memories! He... He can't just..." I took a shaky breath, my hands finding their way into my hair, "He can't just take that part of me..." I whispered. I didn't even look at them, before running out of the room and into some part of the castle that I didn't know. But as I looked through blurry vision I found myself in a seemingly empty room. I felt guilt, sadness..... but also comfort from it. So, I curled up in a corner and let my emotion out. My frustration, my fears, my anger... all of it. Unsure of what I could do next.