Peaky Blinders Imagines

Finn Shelby - We Were Just Kids (Part 2)

You had been back in Small Heath for almost a month and ever since that first conversation with Finn,you had been trying to muster up the courage to tell him how you felt and how you still feel.

It was like you had never left in the first place,Tommy was happy to have you back and so was Polly and Arthur. You got your job at the Garrison back much to Finn's dismay. You had found out about John and you broke down crying in the bar,you hadn't seen him since you left and has asked around about him but when Harry told you the news it killed you. John was like your big brother and you realised then that you should have never left. Everything had changed. Your boys were no longer your boys.

Finn had been acting really weird with you this past week and you didn't know why. He would avoid talking to you and whenever he came into the room and saw you, he would leave instantly. You were starting to get sick of it and decided to confront him about it.

"Finn! Finn,wait up!" You shouted after the young boy who had seen you in the street and then turned away but instead of stopping he walked faster. You had finally managed to catch up to him,placing a hand on his shoulder and spinning him around.

"Woah,hey Roman,didn't see you there" he let out a nervous laugh and rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. Your arms were crossed and the look on your face could kill.

"Why have you been avoiding me,Shelby?"

"Woah,when did you get so tall?" He waggled his finger in your face which you slapped away,causing him to wince.

"And now you're avoiding my question,what's going on Finn?"

"Nothing. Leave it. Yeah?"

"No Finn,I'm not going to leave it. Tell me"

"No"

"Tell me"

"No!"

"God dammit Finn! Just tell me!"

"I fucking love you okay!"

Your breath hitched in your throat and you watched as Finn ran his hands over his face.

"Finn..."

"No,don't say anything. I've been trying to push them back down but they keep resurfacing but I can't love you" He turned to walk away from you and without even thinking,your feelings come spilling out of your mouth.

"I love you too,Finn. I always have,ever since we were kids" a small smile appeared on your face as you watched Finn stop in his tracks but it quickly wiped off your face when you heard him laugh and shake his head.

"You don't love me,Y/N. You never really,truly loved me" you opened your mouth to speak but Finn refused to let you say anything. "If you loved me then you never would have left me. I needed you and you fucking left me,Y/N"

You watched Finn wipe away a tear and take a deep breath. "Of course I loved you Finn but I had to leave"

"No!" He shouted "my fucking brother died and you weren't here Y/N,where the fuck were you?" Your head dropped and realised that you had hurt the only person who had been there for you through everything.

"I'm sorry Finn,I really am but I do love you. More than anything." Finn put up his hand,a gesture to tell you to shut up,you nodded and dropped your head and listened to the sound of his footsteps walking away from you.