Angels With Filthy Souls R-18 (COMPLETED)

#12

My mind cannot stop thinking about him. He's really here and just some meters away. Earlier when I heard him changed his decision, the butterflies inside my stomach gone wild. The feeling was nauseous and I still feel the same up until now. 

The strong dropping of rain helps me calm my mind and heart. It's the same moment I realized how hungry I am. Sinabihan ko kasi si Mommy na busog ko. The conversation between me and Elijah is the reason why I do not have my appetite right now. Sa tuwing inaalala ko iyon ay hindi ko mapigilang umiyak. Umikot ako sa kabilang side at inakap ang pink bolster pillow ko. Inamoy ko 'yun pagkatapos ay nagpakawala ng isang hangin. It's just 9:30 in the evening and I can't get myself to sleep. 

I am pull out of my train of thoughts when gentle knocks happened and then followed by the sound of the door being opened. I sit up and dry my cheeks as fast as I can. When I looked back I saw the person I think I needed the most right now. 

Agad akong bumaba at tumayo malapit sa kama. Nakakahigop ng hininga ang suot niyang gray sweat shorts at itim na t-shirt. Kasyang-kasya lang sakanya ang suot niyang pang-itaas kaya naman ay masyadong nakadepina ang mga muscles niya. He has a tray with food on his right hand and a couple of paper bags with famous brand names written on it. 

"What happened?" There's a scowl on his face as he ask me that question. I shake my head and settle my eyes on my bare feet. I am wearing my rose gold silk sleepwear because my plan tonight is to really sleep or overthink and to face him at this time. 

Una niyang nilapag ang mga paper bags sa upuan ng vanity mirror ko. Ako naman ay umupo rin sa dulo ng kama ko. Kumuha pa ako ng isang throw pillow para itakip sa naangat kong shorts. Hinayaan ko namang nakalaylay ang paa kong 'di abot ang sahig. 

When he looks back at me his face is still etch with the same emotion, worried and confuse. Am I that transparent when it comes to him? Or is he just that good in reading minds and eyes? 

"You skipped your dinner and... you cried." He reaches for my right cheek and brush the lone tear from it. He let his finger linger there which makes me look up to him with sad eyes. 

"I thought you're strong enough but by staring at you right now gives me a conclusion that you're not. We're two weeks apart and coming back to this is not okay for me. Now tell me what happened my Kitten?" Hindi ko alam kung ano ang pumasok ko pero bigla ko na lamang siyang niyakap sa bewang at umiyak sa bandang tiyan niya. 

Forsythe's free hand brush my long hair and that build another set of tears for me to cry. I tear up more this time and sob my betrayed heart out. It finally sinks in to me. My relationship with Ishmael and my friendship with Sapha, Danny and Elijah has ended. I was betrayed not just once but twice. I am weak, a mess and a good for nothing friend, girlfriend and daughter. 

"S-sorry po." Nilayo ko ang mukha ko at kita ang ginawa ko pagbasa sa damit nya gamit ang luha ko. Umupo siya sa tabi ko at tinulungan akong tuyuin ang mukha ko. 

"It's fine, baby. But I really don't like seeing you cry. Here let me feed you your dinner. Gutom ka na ba?" Napanguso ako at napatango. I am sure that my nose is as red as my eyes right now. 

Forsythe let me drink water first and I take that to slow down my breath. He is  indeed true to his words, he spoon feeds me until I finish my meal. Sinubukan ko namang agawin sakaniya pero hindi niya ako hinayaang magwagi. 

"You go brush your teeth while I go down and place this to the sink." Nag-aalinlangan ko siyang tiningnan. Ayaw ko talagang mapalayo ngayon sakaniya. It's weird that I am finding comfort in his arms. He sighs before answering me. "We'll talk, Kitten. I'll be right back." 

Bumaba ako ng kama ko at tinungo ang bathroom ko. Lumabas na rin naman siya nang magsimula na akong maglakad. Namumula pa rin ang ilong buhat ng pagkakaiyak ko. Namamaga rin ang aking mga mata at kalat ang mga buhok. Damn, I look like a witch. Makatitig kasi si Forsythe ay parang wala namang mali sa akin. Naghilamos na rin ako pagkatapos kong magsepilyo. Pinusod ko na rin ang buhok ko.