Angels With Filthy Souls R-18 (COMPLETED)

#15

What did we just do? Ganoon na lang ba palagi ang routine ko? Huli na sa tuwing mare-realize ko ang aking mga ginagawa? Why am I even letting my heart overpower my mind? I am being irrational here.

Bumalik ako sa passenger's seat at napapikit ako habang kinakalma ang aking sarili.

"What's wrong?" Napamulat ako nilingon siya nang hindi inaalis sa pagkakasandal ang ulo ko sa headrest ng sasakyan niya.

"This," I motion my hand forward. " What we are doing is so wrong. I am not suppose to do those things with you." It's just too frustrating to experience things you never anticipated to happen. You become less prepared and impulsive all at once.

I grip my exposed knee really hard to stop my tears from falling. Biting my lips did not help either. Hinayaan ko na lang iyong tumulo. Why the hell am I even crying?

My sobs trigger his nerves to panic. Forsythe tries to search for my eyes but every time he lifts my face to make me look at him, I face the other direction.

"Hey, Kitten. Stop, tell me what's wrong please." There is a hint of desperation and helplessness in his voice.

"Please stop crying. Kung ano man ang nagawa ko, sorry. Sorry for pushing you to the limits, sorry for making you do things you don't want and sorry for dragging you to this kind of relationship. If you want this to stop..." I hear him sigh and my eyes welled up again as he says those things. "Fine, let's end this as soon as possible. I am not going to force you anymore."

I slap him on his face but not that hard just enough force to pull him back to his senses. My heart beats fast not because I am chasing for air but it's because I feel nervous.

"That's not what I mean!" Sigaw ko sakaniya at tinulak siya palayo sa akin. Ni hindi man lang siya nanlaban.

Tiningnan niya ako sa mata at nakita ko ang pagdaan ng panghihinayang doon.

"I know this is wrong but I don't want this to end." Mahina pero sapat na para marinig naming dalawa ang sinabi ko.

"But I am making you cry, this set-up is making you cry. That's the least thing I need to see, Lana."

Naiinis akong napapikit. I really hate it when Forsythe acts his age. That's is so frustrating and so profound for me to understand. Our minds don't sync either. Hindi ko siya maabot.

Mahina akong napahagulgol sa huling mga salita niya. Right, I am that easy to let go because he already knows that I am too vulnerable when it comes it too him. I look pathetic but who cares?

"But I don't want us to end either. Come here let me fix my Kitten."

Kinuha niya ang kulay itim na tali na nasa dashboard ng sasakyan niya at ginamit iyon para itali ang buhok ko sa likod. Sunod niya namang kinuha ang panyo na nasa bulsa niya bago tinuyo ang luha sa mukha ko.

"I don't know where to run if not to you. I feel like I am lost, Daddy." Sinisinok pa ako habang nagsasalita. Natigil siya sa pagpapahid sa mukha ko.

"Don't worry about that, Kitten. I am here to help you find answers. Let's search for yourself together, okay?" He then kisses my forehead. His lips linger there for a minute before he stares his eyes intently to me.

"Lunch?" I nod my head and he smiles at me while locking my seatbelt. Nag-iwan pa siya ng halik sa pisngi ko pagkatapos ay umayos na ng upo sa driver's seat.

Napagdesisyonan niyang sa malapit na restaurant na lang kami kumain. Napili niya ang Apollo Restaurant sa may Goldenfields. Hindi ganoon karami ang tao roon dahil karamihan sa customer ay take-out lang ang ginagawa.