Angels With Filthy Souls R-18 (COMPLETED)

#20

"Where are you!?" Singhal ko kay Ava na nasa telepono ngayon.

"Coming!" Ako na ang nagbaba ng tawag.

Fifteen minutes na akong nakatayo dito sa kanto ng bahay namin at sa buong oras na iyon ay wala akong ginawa kung hindi ang pumatay ng lamok. Nawawalan ako ng poise at nasisira ang OOTD ko dahil sa kagagawan ni Ava at Lordvy.

I told them to fetch me at one and I expect him to be waiting for me outside already but to my dismay, paalis pa lang sila ng club ng mga oras na iyon. Hiling ko lang talaga na hindi sila lasing papunta rito. Sa dinami-rami ng nangyari sa akin sino ba ang hindi magkakaroon ng trust issues?

Laking pasalamat ko naman nang may nakitang ilaw ng sasakyan papunta sa akin. A Ford Mustang halts in front of me and the window from the passenger's seat rolls down. I can see a grinning Ava and an apologetic Lordvy. Kumibit-balikat pa ang huli.

"Hop in!" Pagkasakay ko ng sasakyan ay agad din naman itong umandar. I bend forward, sticking my face on the space between the lovers. I kiss them both first on the cheek before sitting straight here in the backseat. 

They are both wearing denims, Lordvy in shorts and a loose shirt while Ava is in her skirt and low neck tank red  top. While me on the other hand is wearing the pink satin dress Forsythe gave me. May slit iyon sa gilid na hanggang mid thigh na bigayan ko ng three-inch suede heels from Missguided. Suot ko rin ang favorite choker ko,  the lacy white one. Ito lang ata ang hindi bigay ni Forsythe, yes that even my thong is given by him. Ganoon ya ako kung i-spoil too bad he is not here to admire me. 

Kaya naman agad akong dumiretso sa banyo ng VIP room na naka-reserve para sa amin. Mga interns lang ang nandito ngayon dahil kami-kami lang naman ang nagplano nito. Or maybe it's much better to say that I am exempted from the planning stage. I never involved myself from the plans because I was really anxious that that might reach Kuya Caleb. It's better be safe than sorry. 

Speaking of Foresythe, I just sent him my fresh photo snap. I am strutting in front of the wall mirror, exposing my legs from the slit. I did not wait for his reply and went back outside. Kaunti lang kami ditong naiwan sa loob at kitang-kita mula rito sa loob ang pagsabay ng mga tao sa party music at lights. Nasa first floor kasi kami at tanging wall glass ang naghihiwalay sa amin mula sa nasisikipang mga tao sa labas. 

I reach  for the vodka bottle and pour myself a drink. I chug it down as I see my phone lit up. My stomach lurches due to the anticipation. Parang bigla akong tinamaan kahit na vodka pa lang ang nainom ko dahil bigla akong napangisi na animo'y baliw. My face thickens as it burns with excitement. 

Daddy: Where are you?

Kitten: Out with friends. :( I miss you so bad.

The emoji I used does not even reflect my real emotions right now. In fact, I am smiling. Ang saya kasi niya paglaruan, totoong naiinis siya. Mula kanina pa siya habilin nang habilin sa akin. What to only do and what not to do. He starts to sound like my parents already. 

Daddy: Sneaking out again? Go home now, Kitten. I am not there to look after you. 

I scoff, he even rejected my message saying that I miss him. Napasimangot ako at uminom pa ulit ng isnag shot ng vodka. 

Kitten: Then umuwi ka sa akin dito sa Philippines or else I'll find someone better than you do. 

I know I am lying to myself when I send him that. There's no one better than him and I will not ever replace him. Seems like my plan fireback on me. Siya dapat ang naiinis ngayon at hindi ako. 

Daddy: Go home now, Kitten. I know how a man's mind works ad don't you dare doubt me on that part. You weren't even born when I was a teenager, you dirty girl.

I breathe in some air and read his text one more time. I end up deleting the message before anyone can get the chance to peek into it.I never think of the aftermath will be like this. What I need is someone far from my parents and their nags but fate has really been playful to me. I already said I've had enough but...

Due to frustration, I massage the bridge of my nose and heave out the air in my lungs. 

Daddy: I am not sharing you. You're mine, Kitten. 

His firm jaws clamping, thick eyebrows furrowing and the pursing of his lips are the things I can imagine as I read his new message.It made me close my thighs even tighter and bit my lip. I can hear his demanding, low voice inside my head.

"Hey! 'Wag kang madaya at umupo lang d'yan. This is our celebration not a prayer meeting. Join us in the dance floor."

I don't know if I should be thankful or not for cutting me out from my trance. But before I can even complain she is pulling me up already and so I am left with no choice but to leave my phone in my purse and we head to the dance floor. Hindi pa naman ako nakapag-reply kay Forsythe at panniguradong doon na siya maiinis.

This is going to be bad. Yet I also thought that that idea is a good one. Baka umuwi siya ng wala sa oras dito sa Pilipinas. And that's what I want, right? To keep him close. 

Nang madaling-araw rin 'yung ay kinalimtan ko muna ang problema ko at ginaya ang pag-e-enjoy na ginagawa ni Ava at ng iba pa naming kasama. Three thirty o'clock na kami na nahatid pauwi at nagpapasalamat din ako na hindi pa gising sila Daddy. Hinintay kasi muna namin na mahimasmasan sa kalasingan niya si Ava. 

My head is still spinning when I woke up. To confirm whether the argument we had last night is not a dream I open my phone and tap on his name. My eyes go big. I cannot believe this, as if trying to brush away the dizziness, I blink a couple of times but nothing changed. 

He blocked me for real. Doon na ako natakot kaya naman sinubukan kong i-search ang pangalan niya sa facebook pero wala man lang lumabas. Bumalik ako sa palitan ng message naming dalawa pero iyong kagabi na ang huli. 

I am not sure if he just deactivated on Facebook but to make sure that my assumptions are right, I immediately created another account and track his name down but Forsythe Pendleton Dullesco is nowhere to be found. 

Natataranta na nanaiyak na ako. I cannot afford to lose him, not that fast. Marami pa akong gustong patunayan, gawin at sabihin sakanya. Why is life so unfair to me? 

Did he just ghost me? If so, fuck him. Fuck him for being unfair and for leaving me clueless and blinded by his attention. 

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I wait for two weeks to months and even years but it he already forgot me like what happened between never existed. So I did myself a favor and forgot him as well. I set him aside and give myself the love I always deserve. 

Time passes by, I got my own car at age 21 and I was on my second year college of AB English. Kuya EA gifted me an apartment on my college graduation. I accessed my freedom that day, too. Marami na ang nangyari sa buhay ko at isa na talaga akong ganap na strong, independent woman. I have my car, money a stable career as professor in STI-West Negros and sometimes I do freelance jobs such as manuscript evaluator  sa publishing ng mga kapatid ko. 

But there's still something... someone either that lacks me to be completely happy and I don't even know if I can experience the same love I have five years ago. 

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The End

charot! hahaha, wala 'yoko na.