ON GOING: SURGERY [ COMPLETED ]

chapter eighteen

V a u g h a n

Mas mahirapan kapag hindi nagpapakita ng pag hihinagpis ang isang tao. You know that she's hurting but you cant dictate her to show that, bottling up all your emotions will make you burst, and I don't want that to happen to Isra.

"Israel. It's ok, you can cry."

"You know what? My tears dried up already. I cried way too much these past few days, wala na ata akong tubig sa katawan."

"That is not possible. You can't survive without water in your body, the body consists mainly of water so--" naputol ako sa pag eexplain ng bigla ko nalang narinig ang tawa nya. What? Is she laughing at me now?

Tumatawa ito habang umiiling iling. What? DidI say something funny? As far as I can remember hindi naman ako nag jojoke. 

"Did I say something?" Kunot noo kong tanong sakanya pero inilingan nya lang ako atsaka ipinag patuloy ang pag luluto.

"I'm being melodramatic here and you go talk science with me. Ganon ka ba talaga? Whenever you get the chance to relate things to medicine naisisingit mo kaagad. You're amazing." Did I really? Hindi ko napapansin. Ganon pala ako.

"Sorry, does that make you uncomfortable? I may have sounded so obnoxious." That somehow made me feel uneasy, siguro naiinis sya saakin minsan kapag nasasabihan ko sya nga mga ganon.

"No. No. You did not offend me at all. I find it amusing. You just made me laugh, I thank you for that." Then a small smile crept to my face. Seeing her smile like this is one of the precious moments I need to cherish and I need to maintain.

"I know they had a reason. Don't resent them for not telling you right away." I took three big steps and found myself wrapping my arms around her small figure.

"I know. And I don't resent them. I just feel like it's unfair, you know, not letting me know that my brother had a problem as a kid, I could've helped him until it was too late."

"I know you feel that it's unfair. Pero kagaya ng sabi ko--"

"Life is unfair, I know that already, ilang beses mo ba planong sabihin sakin yang linyang yan?"

Talaga? Why am I not always aware of my actions? I should pay attention on what I'm saying.

Maya maya pa, sinabihan nya na akong pumunta sa lamesa para makapag hain na sya ng mas maayos. She cooked two dishes, I don't really know the exact name pero I'm sure they smell good.

I'm also not used to eating home cooking, wala kase kameng oras para don, considering our work masmatagal pa ang nasa labas kame ng bahay kesa sa nasa loob. I also prefer to eat outside kase mas mabubudget ko ang oras ko.