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Past

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Everything had been like a simple lie.

The ways mother treated me, [y/n], was simply nothing like how others treated their children.

I could not cry.

I could never show weakness.

I could only trust myself.

That was what mother taught me.

Mother was beautiful, very, and I could not be more proud to call myself her daughter. People flock her like bees and butterflies would to vibrant flowers, like how plants moved towards sunlight, like a moth to fire.

She was the most elegant, the one who could be described in that word. I know people would criticize me for my mother worship, but it was the truth. I could never find a person more beautiful than mother.

That was until father sent me to a sect to study.

My mother opposed to it, but I was still sent to the sect no matter what she said. My father claimed she had held power over me for fourteen years, and it was time she let go of me. For I would be married off into another family, and my last name would never be the same as theirs.

The entrance ceremony was boring, with an elder with grey hair and a long beard giving a long lecture. But that was also the same moment when I noticed the one person who would change my view of the world forever.

He had long black hair and beautiful eyes. People said he was the younger brother of the current Sect Leader. Such a person with such a beauty that surpassed even mother, to think that he would be a full fledged man irked me. Women would die to look as gorgeous as he was, and he turned out to be a man?

His mere presence seemed to make all the beautiful girls entering the sect feel ashamed.

But not myself.

Mother told me that there would always be people with a quality that surpassed mine. She taught me to always be level headed, for I also had a quality that surpassed theirs.

Mother wasn't as beautiful as him, but her intelligence definitely was superior. She was the wisest, the only reason she held on to me even though going to a sect would be beneficial for me was the love she held for me.

There wasn't any other explanation.

I do not believe there would be another explanation.

The man was everywhere, almost, and could be seen whining as the current Sect Leader brought him out to train. He was nothing like the current Sect Leader, except for his hair and eye colour. The Sect Leader had manly features and the man had more feminine features.

It was through several gossipy students that I found out his name.

Nie Huaisang.

I personally do not like chatty people, who did not perform their duties to the utmost, like how I did. However, just this once, I thought that they were helpful.

Nie Huaisang was a kind man, and he really loved beautiful things. He collected all the beautiful things he could find, and every one of them fits his countenance. I could not see anything wrong with it.

"What about this pottery? What do you think?"

I was dragged to where he stored his beautiful things, ever since one time I commented on an item. It wasn't my fault, my mother thought that it would be useful. In the past, I doubted it. Father wasn't that wealthy to be able to acquire rare things like in mother's books.

However I could see several in Nie Huaisang's collection.

To think that he would let me see his priceless collection, even asking me about several precious items, I felt...

Happy.

In the past, whenever I reached out to my father, he would reply with a vague answer, most likely telling me that it was no use asking about things that I certainly wouldn't have the ability to even see. However, I just proved him wrong.

I saw most of them, in the flesh. Gifts bestowed towards Nie Huaisang from his brother and other significant figures. Such a person, yet he associated himself with me.

I was never arrogant. Just cold.

My mother made me believe that.

However, just being with Nie Huaisang had given me more happiness than being with my mother, or earning my father's recognition. Family comes first. I know the saying. Even if I understood, I could never deny the effects of being by Nie Huaisang for just a few days. My heart felt full, as if it was beating out of my chest.

Personally, I'd love to keep him out of danger, so he would never change.

Yes, it was possessive of me, and I was too arrogant to think that a person of high status would keep himself the same just because of some beauty obsessed lady.

Even if he did, the heavens would do anything to set him to the path they had carved out for him. The path to glory, and suffering was included in the path. What suffering?

Losing his brother.

I didn't know. I was grieving the loss of my mother. I was told to go back, to pay filial piety one last time, and I came too late. However, instead of the heart wrenching pain I thought I'd feel, I just felt a sting. My mother's life was important, but I didn't have the mother worship I had before I entered the sect.

When I returned, news of Nie Huaisang's older brother's death had spread.

He wasn't my brother, not one of those insufferable jerks who claimed to be your sibling and didn't treat you like one. He wasn't even tied by blood with me.

Even so, I felt the pain Nie Huaisang did. The pain of losing family.

My mother was my everything, that was what I believed years ago. Yet now, my worship for this beautiful human surpassed my now dead mother.

She taught me to fancy the beautiful things. I had mother worship because she was beautiful. Sure she was, but Nie Huaisang was beautiful both on the outside and the inside. He completely erased my mother worship and made me devote myself to him.

I'm sorry mother.

But your daughter don't want to follow you anymore.

-[y/n]

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"[Y/n], are you finished? You promised you would accompany me," Nie Huaisang called to a small courtyard near his. This friend of his, he had mixed feelings about her.

"Coming."

[Y/n] looked at Nie Huaisang. He had changed, so much. She couldn't recognize the current him, but she knew deep down, he was still the Nie Huaisang she knew.

At least that was what she would love to believe.

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