What Will Be (Chibs and Juice)

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"Why're ye so upset Juicey? I said I was sorry for causing a raucous." Chibs was sorry, he didn't realize the man would get so upset. They'd all been in fights before, Juice and himself had their blows even. His face showed the sincerity of his apology but Juice rolled his eyes and huffed.

"I'm pissed at the situation Chibs. I mean we've been back a few hours and you're bleeding, the President is a pulp, and you have no understanding as to why that's a problem. I'm already in a fit of nerves and now I'm worried about you also. I thought things would be different for some reason." He just stared blankly at Chibs, trying to keep emotion from his face.

Chibs sighed, he was right. Juice shouldn't be worried about him flying off the handle every time something goes wrong. A normal level of worry one has for their partner sure but how could the lad trust him if he was worried about his decision making. Chibs was maxed out, they'd only been in Charming for a few hours and he was already tired of being Chibs. He wanted to shrug off his cut and just be Fillip with Juan.

"I do see the problem Juan. I am sorry. Im not sorry for defending ye, but I did go about it poorly. Ye don't need the stress of worrying about what I'm going to do. There is no excuse for my behavior, all I can do is apologize. If ye need some time to process yerself thas fine. I'll be on yer couch when yer ready to talk to me about it."

Juan looked dumbfounded, he couldnt process what he was feeling. He wasn't sure if he was actually mad at Fillip or the situation in general. He needed a minute to get his words together. He leaned against the counter and threw the ice pack angrily into the sink. He felt a spiral starting, everything felt out of control. After their away time, with everything being safe and controlled in some way or another he wasn't ready for the chaos of this life. He stood there for a little longer before succumbing to his strongest emotion. Chibs was fine, things would be fine, he was fine. He didn't want Chibs, he wanted his dominant, in control of the chaos Fillip. His snuggly and cuddly Daddy. He needed to feel that safety, that  control he only felt when he gave up some of his own. They hadn't done much but the spanking he'd gotten after his fuss had made him feel oddly calm. The way Fillip or Daddy stayed so calm and just told him what would be, he needed that. He didn't want a spanking, he didn't need that, he just needed Daddy to stop being sad and just fix it.
He stormed into the living room with his hands on his hips. He was going to fix it.

"Get up Fillip." He commanded in a stern voice. Fillip cracked open an eye and looked at Juan with a raised eye brow.
Juan didn't crack he simply repeated the command impatiently. "Get off of the couch."
Fillip decided to play along, whatever he was up too would probably be in the very least amusing. He stood and crossed his arms, eyes locked on Juan. "Now wha?"

Juan was silent for a moment, unsure of what to say next. He hadn't planned past that, he thought surely Fillip would either tell him to hush and pull him into the couch with him or he'd be punished for being so rude. His brow crinkled and he quickly came up with something.
"Give me a hug. A real one. Not an apologetic one. Hug me like you mean it." He tried to maintain a stern voice but it was so hard to do when asking for hugs. Also when talking to Fillip it was near impossible.
Fillip nodded and closed the space between them, pulling Juan into a tight hug. It felt like warm and forgiveness mixed with the safety of those arms and the smell of whiskey, Juan's head felt swimmy.
"Yer cute when yer bossy." He kissed the crown of his head. "Ye feel all mixed up huh?" Juan nodded into his chest. "My little display of arrogance and assault didn't help make anything better did it? Juan shook his head. "Ye feel confused and uneasy. Bc you didn't know what to do or how to react after our time away. I did a terrible job at helping you transition. Helping you continue to feel safe and in control. I wasn't thinking about how my actions would affect ye, just thinking about my own feelings. I wasn't a very good example of how to handle a tough situation was I? Juan shook his head, clutching onto Fillip still not letting go of the hug. I wasn't being a very good Daddy. Or Dominant. Or partner. I thought I was doing it for ye, but I was doing it for my own satisfaction. I never considered what ye wanted. I didn't give ye the information. I'm not apologizing, I'm laying out my infractions. Accepting responsibility for what I've done, and asking for forgiveness." He squeezed Juan tighter, Juan felt bubbles of tension being squeezed from him, relaxing more into feeling.