What Will Be (Chibs and Juice)

45

"Lovey" Juan could hear Fillip in the distance. His voice sounded like he was under water, he couldn't focus on the sound. He opened his eyes, his vision was blurred, he couldn't only make out the outline of Fillips face.

"Lovey, I'm ere lovey. Ye okay?"

Juan blinked up at him trying to answer him but he didn't have control of his muscles yet. Fillip looked different, he has scruff where he had once been shaved clean, a more full beard adorned his face in place of his neat goatee. He wore prison jeans and a white tee shirt, which Juan found to be a stark contrast to his typical black and dark colors.

"Where are we?" Juan's voice didn't sound like his own to his own ears. Everything felt foreign, he didn't feel like his body was even his own.

"Yer at Stockton. Ye came to visit me lad." Fillip was concerned, this was the second time the boy had fainted for seemingly no reason.

"Why are we in this room?" Surprise filled him again Ashe room in the room once more.

Fillip swallowed dryly and looked sad or lost.

"I need ye to trust me lad. I didn't do this." Fillip sighed, pressing his fingers of his free hand into the bridge of his nose. His other arm still wrapped around Juan holding him upright against the bed.
"Jax. He thought he was doing us a favor. Lad I swear I didn't tell em'."

Juice looked confused, his entire life was confusing, why would this be any different.

"I know you didn't. He told me at the last visit. He's worried about you being depressed."

"Well I guess we got outed before we were ready huh?" Fillip sighed again.

Juan smiled a little. "It's okay. If we're not going to be killed by the club. We can still have our secrets. Right Daddy?"

Now Fillip smiled chuckling softly at his boys teasing. "Yer right lil' one. Yer right."

They were quiet for a while, just enjoying holding each other. The bag on the table caught Fillips eye, he stood up and walked over to it.

"Wha's in this bag?" He smiled teasingly.

Juan beamed proudly at him, standing up from the bed too quickly. He shook his head trying to get rid of the dizzy.

"Those are the cookies I made with Venus! I hope you like them."

Fillip nodded and opened the bag. Some of the cookies were broken into pieces, and he could see the sadness wash over Juan's face.

"That man shook em all up." He was barely audible. His voice sounded so small.

"Well they're still edible. I bet they taste amazing!" He pulled out a large half of a peanut butter with chocolate chips with m&ms cookie. His eyes widened looking at it.

"Mister Healthfood made this?" He teased making Juan blush.

"You know I like sweets Fillip." He wrapped his arms around him and squeezed.

"Aye. Whas my name lad?" Fillip replied in a playfully stern voice. He grinned when he saw Juan's face light up redder still.

"Daddy."

Fillip placed a kiss on his head. Together they sat back on the bed, in each other's arms.
"Thas right. Don ye forget it."

"It feels good to be with you. I'm glad we get to spend time together. Even if it is just an hour."

Fillip turned serious, looking Juan over the letting his eyes rest on his.
"I wan ye to talk to me lovey. Whas going on with ye? How are things going? Your letters have been getting short and vague."