What Will Be (Chibs and Juice)

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When Juan woke up the next morning in a bed at Tigs house he felt oddly light. The memories from last night flooded him, anxiety started to replace that calm feeling. He remembered crying in this room, Venus petting him, she met Juan Carlos. His ears burned with embarrassment, she told Tig about Juan Carlos. He would know, he did know. He wanted to curl up and die, he also wanted towards the food smell. He was hungry and whatever was being cooked smelled good. He could pretend last night never happened, or he could embrace it.

He got himself dressed and brushed his teeth before going into the kitchen. His brain was in chaos again, trying to figure out how to approach the day.

"Well good morning sleepy head! Wasn't sure if you were joining us for breakfast or if I'd have to come drag you out of bed." Venus was way to happy for it to be morning.

Tig turned to look at him, his icy blue eyes piercing into him. Juan swallowed under the state, trying to smile.
"M-morning." He stuttered out before be could compose himself.

"You sleep alright? You seemed restless last night." Tig asked casually, watching Venus plate food.
Juan nodded. He didn't remember being restless or even having trouble sleeping.

"Come on and sit, gotta eat breakfast. What do you think we should do today?" Tig tried to sound enthusiastic but all of this was foreign to him. He didn't like Juice being so timid. Before Chibs left, he was funny, talkative, hyper active and truthfully obnoxious. Tig didn't like this version, quiet, reserved, scared, it wasn't Juice.

"Gotta go to the shop yeah?" He answered in what should have been his normal voice but just didn't sound right. Tig shook his head no.

"I closed the shop today. Everyone has so much shit going on I figured everyone could use a break. So you have a free day. If you don't want to hang out with Venus and myself you could call Jessie."

He nodded, and accepted the plate Venus handed out to him. "Thank you." He sat the plate down and looked at it and then back at Tig.

"Jessie is driving out to some base. They are doing something for them. I don't really know, she said she'd be back in a week. Um. You don't have to baby sit me though, I can find something to do. It's getting easier you know?"

Tig swallowed the food in his mouth. "Well, I thought maybe we could ride out to the lake or something. Get out of town for a day. Venus can pack up some food for us."

Juan Carlos nodded.
"Juice are you sure you're okay? You're just... hmmm off... today." Venus asked sweetly.

"Yes ma'am. I'm fine, just same stuff ya know."

She smiled and slapped him lightly on the shoulder. "Such manners, sweet boy."

Juan felt the flush come over his face and ears. He smiled and pulled into himself.

Tig cleared his throat, inhaling deeply. "Would it be better if maybe, I called you Juan?"

Juan Carlos eyes fluttered upward towards Tig, his arms wrapped around himself. Shit! They weren't going to let last night go. He thought to himself.

"Juan Carlos." He mumbled barely audible.

Tig didn't hear and asked him to repeat it.

"Juan Carlos please." He mumbled again, unable to make his voice any louder.

Tig sighed a little and scooted his chair closer. The tapped his ear and motioned for him to come closer. "Tell me in my ear huh? Maybe then my deaf ears will work."
Juan smiled a little at the joke but leaned into Tigs body to whisper in his ear.
"Juan Carlos, is small. Juan is what Daddy calls me when I'm out of my cut."

Tig nodded. "So Juan is big like Juice?" Juan Carlos nodded.

"And you feel like Juan Carlos now?"
He nodded.

"Okay. Okay... well Uncle Tig has a few questions. Think you can answer them?"
Juan Carlos nodded.

"Okay. Does Juan Carlos talk?"

He giggled, covering his mouth, but nodded yes.
"Sometimes." He spoke softly.

"How old is Juan Carlos?"
He shrugged.

Tig rolled his eyes.

"What does Juan Carlos like to do?"
He shrugged.

Tig rolled his eyes.

"So obviously Juan Carlos is shy, and nervous. Juice isn't afraid of me and Juan Carlos shouldn't be either. I guess we will work this all out yeah?"
Juan Carlos smiles and nodded.

The phone in his pocket started blaring, he hurriedly tried to answer it before it stopped.
This is a collect call from an inmate at Stockton State Prison. Will you accept the charges? Press one for yes. Two for no. Three for name.
Juan pressed three.
Inmate Fillip Telford is trying to reach you. Will you accept the charges? Press one for yes. Two for no. Three...
Juan presses one cutting off the robot voice.
"He-hello?"

"Juicy Boy? Tha ye?"

"Mmmhmmm Juan Carlos, Daddy."

Chibs sighed into the phone. He missed him so much. His heart clinched his when he heard his voice.

"I miss ye lovey. Jax tol me to call ye. Guess ye and Tiggy put some money on the books for me? Ye didn't have to do tha, lovey. I just hadn't gotten around to it."

"I want you to call more."

He stood up and walked from the table. Tig started to follow after him, but Venus placed her hand on his arm stopping him.

Fillip felt like an asshole, he hadn't been calling because he wanted to make the separation easier on Juan but he was only making it worse.

"Okay lovey I'll call more. I'm sorry I got sick an missed ye. Are ye holding up okay?"

"Trying. Heads all messed up. Tig and Venus met Juan Carlos. I didn't mean too, I just can't keep it together. I'm falling apart, I'm going to get booted from the club for being so stupid and weak."

"Hey hey, no tha won happen. Yer not weak lovey, yer dealing with hard shite. Tig and Venus are good people to know about Juan Carlos, they can help ye."

Juan felt the tears, he didn't want to cry. He didn't want to make Fillip sadder.
"Okay. When can I see you?"

"Well lad, because of illness I can put in to reschedule visits. Ye wan come tomorrow?"

He felt his heart speed up with excitement.
"YES! Please." He shouted excitedly.

"Run ask Tig if he will bring ye. Times almost up lovey. Damn short calls." He tried to chuckle but his heart was hurting and the sound reflected it.

Juan ran back into the kitchen, smiling his mega watt smile, bouncing on his heals. Tig wasn't sure what the question was going to be, but he already knew the answer would be yes.

"Uncle Tiggy?" Tigs eyes widened but he didn't interrupt him. He kinda liked the sound of it.
"Can we go see Fillip tomorrow if they let him change his visit?" Tig nodded yes.

"Daddy he says yes! I'm coming to see you tomorrow!" He sing songed feeling like he was going to explode.

"Wait lad, I have to get it approved. I'll call ye in the morning early if the warden says okay."
The call will disconnect in ten seconds. Please insert another payment or disconnect the call. The annoying robot voice spoke over them.
"Okay daddy. I love you!"

"I love ye Juan. Stay brave lad, yer doing such a good job. I'll call more."
The call will now disconnect. Good bye
The phone cut off before he could respond.

Juan already felt better just knowing it was possible.