What Will Be (Chibs and Juice)

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The water was just the right temperature for soaking, the garden tub was big enough to lay in. Juan lay back in tub, submerged to his chin, relaxing into the bubbles. Filip sat beside the tub on a stool, with a book in hand. Not touching him, just being present if needed. He pretended to read his book, while peeking at his boy from the corner of his eye to watch him.

Juan played with the bubbles, piling them up onto his belly and chest. He liked the way they felt when they popped against his skin. He scooped up a handful and rubbed them onto his face. Water splashed over the side of the tub as he sat up quickly getting Fillips attention.

"Daddy! Da-Daddy! Look! I have a beard like you!"

Fillip chuckled looking at him. "Yer silly. Yer cuter than me boyo."

Juan frowned at the statement. He pulled his body up over the side of the tub, his soapy hands grabbing Fillips face, turning him to see him. He held his face firmly, squishing a little, locking his eyes with the others. "I think you're beautiful. I've always thought you were beautiful. Well, I guess handsome is more appropriate." He smiled breaking his serious stance and started kissing his face all over.

Fillip was taken aback by the display in front of him. The revelation that this amazing man or lad actually found him attractive, made his heart flip around in his chest. He was genuine in his words, and his actions were deliberate. Juan giggled pressing his lips to Fillips, he pulled him in the process, using most of his adult strength, and cute manipulation to urge Fillip over into the tub.

Their kisses turned heated, as Juan pulled Fillip onto him against the tub. His naked body moved against Fillips clothed one, his arms gripped around his body holding him close to him, desperately holding him as if he was afraid he'd go away if he let go. The door that opened for his playful and small side to come out, shut, deadbolted tightly. The way Fillips stubble brushes against his face excited him more and his scent drove him almost to madness.

The water started to chill around them but the heat that burned inside Juan didn't let up. He needed the closeness. Deep inside his gut he was nervous about the prospect of sex, but he was too far gone to be concerned. His most sensitive parts were rigid and rubbing against the wet denim in a way that had him stiffen and moan loudly.

Fillip broke from his grasp, his hands that were once tightly holding his body close, now were resting on his on thighs. Juan whimpered at the loss of contact, wanting to feel him against him again. His mind started to reel, all of the negative reasons why Fillip, Daddy, Chibs would reject him started to fester.

Fillip sighed, he was conflicted. How would he ever know if either of them were ready if they didn't move forward? He never really waited with anyone before, this was new territory for him. His libido said he was ready to feast, but his heart told him no. He saw the worry on Juan's face again. Chewing his lip, crinkling his brow, this time his eyes were dark and glazed with tears that didn't fall. Fillips heart broke a little, but he had to be safe about it. So far Juan was so sporadic figuring out when he was adult vs small was proving to be almost impossible.

The way he was figuring it, the boy held a tight lid on his needs most of the time. Here being freely allowed to take what he needed was in return allowing him to literally bounce around between the two worlds. Maybe he would do better with structure, maybe he would do better being able to express what he needed too as he needed too. Fillip didn't know. He was in over his head, he just wanted to love him. To nurture him, help him make positive decisions, think better of himself and to have his basic needs met.

It sounded so simple in his mind. Of course it wouldn't be simple. Juan wasn't simple. He let his guard down too quickly most of the time, and as guarded as he remained even now, he was giving Fillip the reigns. Freely. He trusted him, to make the right decision for him. He trusted him not to hurt him. He trusted him almost blindly.