What Will Be (Chibs and Juice)

10

"Where are we going now?" Juan asked looking at Fillip on the reflection of the window.
"The toy store member. Ye still wanna go?"He laced their fingers together and squeezed.
"Yeah. But maybe not the other one. Ya know. I mean I don't think I have any idea of what I'd want. If anything, and when the time comes I trust you to help." He was rambling quickly, looking now at the floor mat.
"Hey, look at me." Fillip shook his arm. "If yer uncomfortable it's okay to tell me. We don't have to go. I was teasin about tha anyway. I didn't know ye were so nervous about it. I'm sorry lad."

"I do want to go one day. Just not today."

"Ye excited about the toy store?"

Juan smiled because he couldn't help it. The ride to the store wasn't far from the crowded mall. In just a few minutes they were pulling in to the parking lot. Juan was getting restless in the car, he'd been thinking about things he might want.

"The only thing I don't like about shopping with you, we can't hold hands. I really like touching you. My head feels calm when I touch you. Ya know?"

Fillip frowned at his statement. They couldn't stay pent up at home all the time, but he couldn't just deprive the lad either. Something would have to be figured out.
"I'm sorry lad. We will work something out for ye okay. I like touching ye too." He sighed, patted him on the leg. "Come on let's go take a look huh?"

They got out of the car and walked towards the store. It was brightly colored inside, toys lined the walls, and the floors. Juan felt his insides bubble, he tried to hold himself together.
"We will get a few things. Ye can go look. I'll be right with ye."

Juan looked around the giant store, reading labels to what went where. He saw a sign for builders and started that way. He looked over at all the different kinds and his mouth hung slightly open. He found a pack of original bricks and picked up those. Nothing fancy, he could do whatever he wanted with them. He presented them to Fillip, holding back some excitement. The voice in his head telling him not to get his hopes up.

"Ye want those? Let me see em." Juan nodded, playing with his fingers as Fillip looked at the container of bricks. "Yer not gonna eat em are ye?"

Juan cocked his head in confusion. "No."

"Ye gonna pick em up. Not leave em on the floor?" Juan smiled now and nodded big. Fillip couldn't help but smile back at his expression.

"Alright then. I'll hold on to em for ye. Look and see if there's anything else ye might want."

Juan walked around the aisles, one aisle was especially cuddly. Giant stuffed animals were everywhere, small ones, tiny ones. He suddenly felt this overwhelming need to hug them. So he did. He picked up a regular sized frog stuffed animal and squeezed it. It was colorful, green, red and yellow, extra soft. He barely even turned around, and Fillip held his hand out with a grin to rival Juan's own.

They'd spent almost two hours in the toy store, walking up and down aisles, the pile in Fillips arms getting a little bigger.
Whether or not Juan really realized it, his behavior here was exactly why Fillip had been suspicious of him having a little side. He still chose to tread carefully, he didn't want to upset Juan by assuming. He could just be really happy. Not many things went right for the man, and he'd been screwed over plenty of times in his life, even as a child.
"Alright lad. I think ye have enough here for now. Ye wanna go check out?"
Juan looked at him, eyes evaluating the pile he'd accumulated, and then nodding in agreement.
"We're gonna have to find somewhere to put all this. Where do ye think would be a good place?"

Juan crinkled his brow cutely thinking about where in the house they could go. "Maybe in the den?" He squeaked out unsure.

"Aye. The den is a good place. I didn't think about that." He smiled. He could see it on the boys face, he was giddy, and trying hard to keep his hands to himself. He shoved them deep in his pockets, fists balled up.

"Juan, my hands are full, but if ye want to hold some of this." He handed Juan a few of the items and once they had them steady, he swung his now free arm over his shoulder. Juan visibly relaxed at the touch.

They finally finished checking out and packing the car. "Ye ready to get some lunch? I'm hungry. Guess we're not gonna make it back to the house for lunch huh?"

"Guess not. Time just flew by in that place."

"What do ye want to eat? We can go through a drive through and then get the groceries."

"Where ever is fine. You know you can order the groceries online and have them delivered or pick them up. Which ever."

"Huh?- Fillip grunted- Ye will have to show me how. That sounds great!"

"Let's get take out and order them then. Ill show you." Juan shyly squeaked again.

Fillip took his hand and held it firmly. He watched Juan from the corner of his eye, he sat quietly, but still fidgeting.

"Something on yer mind lad?" He jiggled his hand lightly.
Juan shook his head cheeks flushing all the way to his ears.
"Ye sure?"
Juan sighed, hunching over in his seat, resting his face in his hands.
"I'm just happy is all. I feel extra needy and I'm trying to control that."
Fillip rubbed his back, shaking his head.
"Lovey I think tha needy feeling ye got, is what I meant by small. Ye don't have to control tha. We'll be back at the house soon. How about, we snuggle together and ye show me how to order groceries? Sound good to ye?"
Juan nodded happily, pointing out the window as they came up to hamburger joint.
"Ye gonna eat tha?"
Juan smirked at the other man, crossing his arms over his chest. "Yes. Thank you very much."
Fillip laughed defensively. "Oh okay then! Get yer self a burger. A big greasy unhealthy one."

Juan stuck his tongue out at him.

"Back at that are we? Ye keep doing tha, I'm gonna bite it."

"They have veggie burgers here by the way. I've eaten at this chain before."

"Aye. Tha makes more sense. I was worried for a minute. Maybe little Juan Carlos like hamburgers. I don't know."

A shiver went up his spine, when Fillip called him little Juan Carlos. Yep that was it. That was the weird feeling he'd been having. He wanted to sit on Fillips lap, and kiss him, but not like tongue kiss him, just kiss him. He wanted to be silly with him and be his Little Juan Carlos.

"No Daddy. Juan Carlos does not eat hamburgers. Just veg-a-tables ones. That's all."

Fillip nodded and tried to hide his smile. "Okay. Daddy was just teasing ye."