Childhood

6

TONI POV:

"Sarah, come on we need to get a birthday card for Cheryl." She looks back at me. "Oh." I reach my hand out, she runs over and takes it. "Why isn't Jason here?" She ask quietly. "Because when you were at therapy I went out with him." I say quietly. "Cool!" She shrugs. "Why were you up last night, besides what you said?" She ask. I take a deep breath. "Before you and Jason were born I was in the army, and some stuff happened, it has caused me some trauma." I tell her quietly. "So you woke up from that?" I nod. "That happens to me. Obviously you would know." She looks up at me. "I'm sorry you had to go through all of that." I finally say to her. She just shrugs. "I'm used to it."

I look at a picture of me and my mom from my childhood, I desperately hold back tears. "She does look like you." Cheryl sits behind me and rubs my shoulder, she lies her head on my shoulder. "Do you think there's still a possibility?" I ask quietly. "Yeah." She kisses my neck. "I asked her about her family, it might be possible." I whisper. "Her father died the same day my brother." I tell her. "I'm sorry." She whispers. "It's fine." I whisper. "You look like your mom." Cheryl whispers. I sit up. "Your birthday is tomorrow, what do you want to do?" I ask quietly. "I think we should talk to B&V." She whispers. "Ok. I'll text them and tell them to meet us at Pops tomorrow." I text them to tell them. "Everything is going to be ok." I tell her. "Mom! Jason's poking me!" Sarah runs in. I get up and run out with her.

"I thought Cheryl was going to be here too." Betty says as I sit down at the booth her and Veronica are siting at. "Yeah, she couldn't make it." I whisper. "Is everything ok?" Veronica ask quietly. I shake my head. "No, Cheryl is pregnant and we can't afford to have another kid." I confess. "I don't know how to say this. But, Cheryl and I were talking and we decided that you guys should have the kid since you guys have been trying for a while." I whisper awkwardly. They both look at each other. "What?" They both say at the same time. "I really don't want to say it again because this is more of Cheryl's idea than mine I honestly have no opinion on the situation. All I care about is if you guys and Cheryl are ok with this." I say honestly. "Well, we'll discuss and get back to you." Veronica whispers. "Ok." I look down. "I'm just here to pass the idea on."

"Where were you earlier?" Sarah ask as I get her into her car seat. "Umm... again some stuff between Cheryl and I that you don't need to worry about." I whisper. "Like what?" Jason ask quietly. "Nothing! Guys stop asking me a million questions. You don't need to worry, everything is going to be ok. Just let us get through what we need to get through and we'll explain everything when we're ready. Ok?" They both nod. "Great. Now let's go to dinner." I stand up and close the car door. I go over to the drivers side and get in. "You ok?" I ask quietly. "Yeah. Come on." I quickly pull out of the drive way and we go to dinner. "Come on guys." I say as we park. We go in and sit down with Sweet Pea, Fangs, Jughead, Archie, Betty and Veronica. "Who, who are all these people?" Sarah ask moving into me. "They're our friends from high school." I pick Sarah up and introduce her to everyone. I look over at Jason who is starting to get anxious. I get Sarah I her seat next to Cheryl and go over to Jason, who is sitting next to Sweet Pea. "Bud what's wrong?" I ask hold his shoulder. "There's a lot of people." He whispers rubbing his hands together. "We're going to order food and maybe we can go for a walk." I whisper. He nods. I sit next to him and we order his food. "It's loud in here." He pulls my shirt. "Let's go outside." I pick him up. I look over at Cheryl. "We're going to go outside for a minute." I say to her. "Ok." We go outside and walk around for a little but. "Mom?" He looks up. "What's up bud?" I ask quietly. "I still don't get why mom look at me and say that I look just like her brother?" He ask quietly. "Because you do." I whisper. "Who is her brother?" He ask quietly. "That's something for you to ask her." I say quietly. "But maybe not tonight." I tell him. He nods slightly. "Why?" He ask quietly. "Because it's her birthday and it's a hard thing for her to talk about. Ok bud?" He nods. "Do you want to go back inside?" I ask quietly. "I don't know." I nod. "Do you want me to at least put you down?" He nods and I get him down. We walk around a little bit more. "Do you want to go in?" I ask quietly. "Yeah I guess." We go back in and sit down. "Everything ok?" Cheryl ask quietly. "We should talk when we get home." I say quietly in her ear. "Ok." She nods. I kiss her cheek.

"What did you want to talk about?" She ask. "I'm worried about Jason." I whisper. She looks at me confused. "I just think there might be some problems." I say quietly. "I don't know. I could be grasping at nothing." I retract. Cheryl takes my hand. "We should wait till he gets a little older and revisit this. We'll just keep doing what we're doing because clearly it's working for now." She reassures me. I take a deep breath. "I'm just worried something is wrong with him." I say quietly. "Nothing is wrong with him. He just might be different and that's ok, you should know that." She whispers. I take a deep breath. She lies next to me. "We'll love him no matter what." She whispers. "You're right." I move hair out of her face. "How are you doing?" She ask quietly. "I know you got up the other night and I know it wasn't because of Sarah or because you were hot." I look down. "You don't understand." I answer honestly. "Toni..." I turn over to my back. "I don't like talking about it." I take a deep breath as I hold back tears. "Toni. You can't just hide how you're feeling." I take a deep breath. "Emotionally I can't talk about it." I say quietly. "I'm fine though, I just have a panic attacks and nightmares every once in a while, that was the first time in a while." I reassure her. "You're right, but maybe if you talk to someone, Sarah would be more comfortable talking to her therapist." I look at her. "Toni she broke down and had a panic attack because she was scared to talk to her therapist. If you tell her that you also go to one she might feel better talking to someone, because she knows she's not the only one going through this." Cheryl whispers. I look away. "She did break down before getting into the school." I think out loud. "Think about it." She rubs my thigh. "I will." She smiles and pulls me into a kiss. "Good." She straddles me. We make out for a few minutes, our clothes slowly get removed. I get hard really quickly. "Grab a condom." She whispers as she kisses my neck. I reach over to grab one out of the draw. "Ahh Cheryl." I look over at her. "There isn't any left." She gets off me. My boner rises even higher in my boxers. "I thought you got more." She whispers. "I thought we didn't have that much sex!" I sit up.  "I'm gonna take a shower." I whisper. "Ok." I get up and go to the bathroom. I get in the shower and stroke myself slowly. I place my free hand against the wall. "Fuck." I moan quietly. My eyes slowly shut. My moan get louder as I cum. "Oh. Fuck."