Love and Friendship

Twenty Nine

Nathan POV

It has been a month.

A month since I last hug her.

A month since I last kiss her.

And a month since I last hear her voice.

Leo has not manage to find her. He updates often but with not so much good news.

I looked and read her letter everyday. Everytime.

I couldnt function. I feel like a part of me died along with her leaving.

I havent shave in a while. I hardly eat and I havent been attending classes.

Ive been staying with Ginny whom I rarely see now. I mostly lock myself in the room re-reading the letter and looking at her picture.

I didnt even hear the knock on the door until my mum and Ginny walked in.

Elizabeth: Sweetie. Would you like to eat something? I can make your favourite pasta?

I shook my head and kept my eyes closed.

Elizabeth: Im sorry honey. I really am. Im sorry you had to go through this. But Im worried about you honey. You dont have to be like this.

Ginny: Yes Nate. We all are. We will find her. She will be miserable to see you this way.

"She knows I will be. Yet she chooses to go."

Ginny: We dont know anything yet. Until we hear exactly what daddy said to her.

Elizabeth: About that. He wants to see you. He wants to talk to you.

"I have nothing to say to him. I never want to see him."

Elizabeth: Dont say that. He is still your father.

"He lost me when he caused her to leave me. I dont want to have anything to do with him."

Ginny: Nate.

I sat up.

"That enough! I sacrificed my life for him. I hated the business but I am willing to take over it for him. For the family. I was willing to marry Ashley despite the fact that she sleeps around. I was willing to do all that. Keep myself guarded so that I dont hurt anyone with this life we have."

"I didnt ask to have met Selena. I didnt ask to fall in love with her. I just did. And for once it felt good to be doing and feeling something for me. Without the need to please anyone. The few months I had with her was the best time of my life! Do you have any idea how I have felt before this? To be dragged into a world which I didnt want."

"She was the best thing that has ever happenned to me. And now that she is gone, a part of me has died."

"Ive only asked for one thing in my life. To be given a chance to spend my life with the woman I love. The only one I will ever love."

Gareth: Are you really sure she is the one?

We were startled by my father's sudden appearance at the door. Anger crept in me but I held on when I look at his face. He had a sad look which tells me he really wants to talk.

Gareth: What makes you so sure she is the one?

"I just do. No amount of me explaining it to you will make you believe."

My father sighed heavily.

Gareth: Yes the business is important to me and I am willing to do anything to ensure its success. But...

He paused a while, us hanging to his word.

"I believe I made a wrong decision to get you to marry Ashley.

I stared at him shocked. So did Ginny and my mum.

Gareth: I know she was not right but I had to be blind to all that for the sake of the business. And because of that I lost both my children. I am sorry.

My mum gave a small smile to my father urging him to continue.

Gareth: I have thought through a lot this few weeks about what Selena last spoke to me.

I looked at him angrily with him admitting that he did indeed meet her.

Gareth: Before she made her decision to leave, she gave me some conditions. But the one condition which struck me the most was the one about you. About how I should show how much I love you.

Gareth: I was confused. This girl's condition was for you instead of what is good for her. I felt relieved when she decided to leave you. To no longer be a distraction. But as I ponder about what she said, I understood her meaning.

Gareth: It surfaced a lot of things for me. About you. Your sacrifices. Your love and your loyalty. When I met her, I believed she was the same as the other girls knowing about you. And thats why I chose Ashley. She already know this life and she will be able to handle it. But I was wrong. Very wrong. Selena left everything behind and disappear for you. For her family and friends. And I guess I misjudged her character.

Gareth: And if it is any consolation, I can help you find her.

"You know where she is?"

Gareth: I have my ways.

He smiled gently at me.

Gareth: Lets go get her.

I stood up and hug my father.

Gareth: I am sorry son.

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The day passed by in a blur. I immediately cleaned myself up while Ginny updates everyone else.

Tony and his parents wanted to come along but Ginny advised them against it. We wanted to take her home and we need her not to run.

We got onto our private plane that evening heading to Japan.

"Im coming baby. Im taking you home."