Remedy Book: 5

10-Girls

A pair of frozen hands to hold,

Oh she's so southern so she feels the cold,

One moment I was tearing off your blouse,

Now you're living in my house.

What happened to just messing around?

-Girls-The 1975

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Emmy's P.O.V

"Listen Emmy, If you can look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me anymore, I will leave. But I will never, ever, give up on you."

Me and Joey were fighting once again over something so stupid that it shouldn't even matter. Something so little that I forgot all about it.

I didn't reply to him, I didn't feel like I should've.

"I love you, despite what you think. And I know you have been lonely lately and just needed someone to be there for you. I didn't realize that before."

"You're busy with the movie...." I said like him not being there didn't bother me at all. "If you have feelings you feel like you need to express to me, you can tell me."

I didn't say a word, I just kissed him. Waiting for a spark, a sign, a heated moment, something to just let me know that Joey was still mine.

He bit down gently on my bottom lip, something he told me did when he liked what we were doing.

I didn't mind it much either.

He kissed back and it was different.

Different cause its been a year since hes been so affectionate with me other than a few pecks here and there.

Different because his lips were softer than I remembered.

Different because this person wasn't my Joey, this person was someone I didn't even know.

We could Make love tonight and it be the same routine.

Or we could fuck and another kid could be conceived.

No matter what me and Joey did it was never like it was, it never felt quite right.

Im not twenty-one. Im not a girl whos shirt hes taking off one minute and a girl thats living in his house the next. He isn't the same twenty-two year old where messing around with a girl turned into to getting her pregnant and chasing her down.

A year can change a lot.

In a year a guy could go from being your boyfriend to your boy friend.

In a year a girl can go from being your girlfriend to being your wife.

In a year Emmy Graceffa can easily become Emmy Locke again. Or she could be one of those people that look into the mirror and don't recognize what exactly they see.

I never realized how different I became around him.

I was pinned against a wall. He was kissing down my neck and I was zoning out, something I haven't done in awhile.

I was thinking about Sawyer, which I knew was wrong when being in such position with Joey, but I couldn't get him off my mind.

I was thinking of him in any sexual way, I was just thinking of how different he had become too.

Sawyer was sweet now and I wish we were as close as before, with this baby bull shit I feel like we will be seeing one another quite often.

I missed him I did.

And just before Joey was about to take off my shirt I pulled him off of me and took the same route across the street to talk to someone I hadn't talked to in awhile.

Someone I needed in times like this.

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A/N: sorry this is short and took forever, I've been busy...

xCouis